This is for you . I know I hurt you . I am sorry I didn't think that you would actually care or try to have feelings for me . I guess I tried to push it away cause I thought that I would still have a chance to be with someone eles .. I know I shouldn't but I did I guess I wanted something that I know I wouldn't lose her ... But never thought about who actually wanted me I hurt you cause I made you wait and wait and you wanted to wait for me to be ready and I told you when I was I would choose you . But I am ready now but when I did and become ready I was going to be with someone I love . And I know I don't say I love you or that it's only me and you always and forever is cause I want it to be special and I didn't really think I wanted anyone I always thought I would be with one person. Or like love one person my whole life when I dated them but I guess that passed and it didn't work out so ... I moved on and always went back but I know I got to change who I want to be with and be who would want me and would want to be with me for the rest of my life if so ... I know you been hurt I get that and I don't want you to be. Hurt I think you lost the trust in me cause what I told you when I said I would be ready to be with you I didn't I tried to think I wanted something that isn't meant to be... You taught me to not to have anyone to bring me down you lol we would make our little night trips sometimes me and you . Or how we cant control our self's when we watch our movies . Or shows but your the one I believe I want to be with since you been there since day one and you haven't gave up on me . If we do try again I will give you everything and all my attention. Won't talk to any other girl only you . Won't cheat and won't change anything about you. Your the one who I can be myself with so far . I know I haven't told you everything that is going on and I just tell my best friend thought I can be stronger to trust others so I swear I will trust you . And give you my love to you . Your a girl I can not find in this world ... So if you can give me a chance to make it up to you I will ask you ... Out that you dreamed about . Anything. I will always put you first well second my family comes first ... And yours is first to you to . But I ... I want to be home with you. How I call my home well second home to you and your sister . But yeah that's how I feel .