In love with her but She Is A Friend ....

Something to tell you.

Is it real or all in my head that I loved you so much that I tried to make things work yes I know that I hurt you bad . That cheating thing I did was wrong but I did it one day . And do I regret it ? ... Yes I do .why? Cause I lost my virginity to her . And I burly knew her but made me feel comfortable . So I guess . I went for it.  But any ways I do regret it.  So right now we are friends .. right and I don't want to change that yes I told you I had feelings for you but I realized that I can't just have feelings and be hurt.  Like to be honest from me writing this and you telling me it's fine to say anything on here like I can say anything and everything so ... I will . One is that I tried to be with you.  And everything like I just how I looked at it like the long distance is that if I was in the military it would be exactly the same thing would you lose feelings . Just like that but I Know not the same I'm not saving the world but a lot of respect to them.  like I don't know I felt like you gave up to . Like you didn't want it to work . If you did try it would work out cause the time you forgave me it worked for me I wanted it to work.  You gave it up I just don't know . If it was actually really real . Two we burly even seen eachother like on FaceTime or burly called each other cause on your side you couldn't . I could do anything it don't bother them . Cause they knew I was with you and it was long distance so I tried to make it work . But I always came back to you . But glad we are friends cause maybe trying is not good for us.  So hopefully when you do read this hope your not mad I wanted to be honest .