tokyo ; knj ✓

𝒐𝒏𝒆.

as i walk the occupied streets of the famous city, the blaring lights blinding my vision. sometimes i wonder, how was i so privileged to visit a country with remarkable sights and beautiful scenery. tokyo. you opened your heart to me and i opened my mind, body and soul to you.

closing my eyes, breathing in the cold air of the gloomy night. the sky clear, no stars shinning down on us tonight. everything was perfect. the streets we walked on, the clusters of cars soon to be stuck in traffic and the gentle rain which would pour down on us. it was all so perfect. now, it is just a distant memory of a past that makes my heart ache with immense pain.

the memories of the past, the sepia images running through my mind whenever i think of you. i miss you. so much. the pain, the abandonment. i lost myself. i lost my purpose. i lost you.

sometimes i wonder. who am i? why am i here? why am i still here? i want to escape. i needed to escape. but if i did, i would lose you forever. i already lost you once, i simply cannot lose you again.