*2 years ago*
-Shawn: So, what you wanted to tell me?
-Beatrice: Umh, look Shawn..I just..
He looked at me straight in the eyes, and took a deep breath.
-S: I don't know what's going on, but you know you can trust me
-B: It's just so difficult
-S: Oh come on
-B: Okay then..Well, i just wanted to tell you that i love you. I actually have a crush on you. But i could never find the words to say it .
Shawn looked at me shocked.
-S: Is this any kind of joke?
-B: No..
I start feeling guilty and i immediately regret saying what i feel.
-S: Tris! You've been my best friend my whole life, how can you say that?
-B: Well I'm sorry that i have fucking feelings for you! It just happened!
-S: For how long?
-B: I dont know...
-S: Why didn't you talk to me earlier?
-B: Because i knew, i was sure what your reaction would be like. I fucking knew this, but i couldn't take this anymore. I can't see you flirting with other girls and just sitting there not being able to show how i feel about you.
Shawn is speechless. He looks dissapointed. A tear streams down my face, and i feel my eyes burning.
-B: Sorry for loving you, but this is how i feel.
-S: I love you, but not in this way Tris! You'v always been like a sister to me, i can't do this!
-B: Well if this is too hard for you, then okay! Don't you ever talk to me again. I'm done with you, bye Shawn.
I'm in tears, and im leaving almost running. I can hear Shawn screaming "Tris! Tris! Come back, I'm sorry" but i keep running like a child. I'm so done with him!
*Present day*
First day in high school, and i feel so stressed. New school, new teachers, new classmates. I get my books from my locker, and sit there, taking a deep deep breath. The bell rings, and the day officially starts. I'm heading towards my first class, Chemistry. I look for someone to sit with,since we're paired for this class. The only available sit is next to a tall, brown-haired boy with blue eyes. I guess i have to go. As i sit down, i say "Hi" and smile. He nods, and looks away.
It's finally lunch time. As i make my way out of the classroom, i accidentally hit on someone and my books fall. I sit down and try to pick them up, and when i lift my head my eyes met a pair of brown ones. I know these eyes, so well. It took me a sec to recognize him. It's Shawn. Shawn Mendes.
I totally panick. Oh my God! I hadn't seen him for so long! Last time we talked, was 2 years ago, in the end of the summer. we were about 14 when i told him how i felt about him. Since then, i barely see him because he moved away with his parents. I was so hurt by the way our friendship ended, that seeing him was too difficult for me.
-Shawn: Beatrice?
His voice brought me back to the reality.
-Beatrice: Umh...yeah?
-S: Are you okay?
-B: Yes, yes..I'm fine.
I pick up my books and get up. He looks at me at such a weird way, I'm honestly wondering what he's thinking right now.
-S: I'm...I'm sorry
-B: No, it's okay..
I don't really know what else to say, so I just walk away. Should i have talked to him more? Or not have talked to him at all? I don't know. I ge my lunch and take a seat in an available table. Shawn is all i can think about now.
I can see this boy who sits next to me in Chemistry class heading to my table. He takes a seat next to me and smiles. Oh God, his smile gives me butterflies!
-Hey, I'm Nash.
-Beatrice: Hi...I'm Beatrice.
I smile back, and i can feel my heart beating faster. Is is just me or i have a crush on him already?
