What am I to you?
What the hell am i to you?
You said you would talk be more active all you did was ignore and never reply
i stood in my room
looking in the four corners looking like a fool
I felt safe and protected
but you left
I had to fend for my own and i became toxic
My expression bitter
My words bitter
I hurt those who i loved and made them feel like freaking litter
I waited for you to comeback and when you do
you ignore me
I want to talk and want to know if your fine but everything kills me
Stress runs in my head
Every second i wanna throw up
get that guilt out
this has never happened before
but why now
why why why
I can't escape my room without feeling like that
I can't enjoy the warm weather without crying
without happiness
just being like a blind bat not knowing how to locate
It's like you beat me and got checkmate
I'm getting ill
everyday
It's not a good thing
as i cry
and suffer
I just want to go home but that's not the same without me, the one i lost because of you. It's just a waste of time.
I can't go anywhere without stress manipulating my body and making me feel this guilt
making me want to erase it
but what did i do to deserve this?
It was the consequences of meeting you
i love you and i can't stop but do you hate me for being weak?
Adding stress to your agenda i should of thought of you i know but i you could of told me what's wrong and i would of been fine
i want to leave and stop adding to this poem but how when i keep coming back to it just like how i came back for you but just like this poem, you served me no purpose
but then you came back
and all you did was give excuses and my heart doesn't know if it's truth or lies.
i don't know whether to believe you and i just wanna say good bye
Why am i giving you another chance
why am i listening to these false claimes
Im here with a head ache taking all the blame
i was dumb i was foolish i don't even know what to do
Cause I'm here thinking about you
Whether you like it or not, i fell for your trap
and I'm here looking, going in circles, looking for a map
i fell off a cliff cause i listened to you
why did you do this to me dude
now im wandering in circles while you message me
but now i need to listen to what I want it to be
Cause I'm tired of playing it your little way
I'm done with you ruining my day.
