Stories of the forgotten...............

My story

Kaiden Lara.

Hi my name is Kaiden Lara, im 21 years old and i live in Texas in the US and this is my story.

Ever since i was younger i had never really cared about gender, to me it was just what you wanted people to call you and thats that it never affected the friendships i had or how much i or anyone else could do. It didnt matter.

But now that im older and i understand more, i understand the struggle of finding who you are and the weight of life and society balancing on your shoulders. For me the struggle wasnt as bad but at times i did ask myself 'what if i said i was a boy?' How would everyone react?, how would I react?. I started asking myself that when i was going into highschool, i was a year 7 only a newbie fresh out of primary school (im an Australian so if this confuses anyone just ask ok, i dont bite.........most of the time.) And i had gotten my hair cut short because i wanted something new, also it was always getting in the way and this was just how i liked it. 

Although highschool was hard at first i got through with my school work and made a few friends along the way. Well that was until someone asked me something i had never heard before. "Are you a boy or a girl?" It was a little girl with pigtails in her hair looking at me, i was supeised at the question and didnt really know how to respond so i just said in the most plain voice ever "im a girl.....why?". Now i know i didnt have to be so mean and blunt to this little kid but i didnt know how to respond, i tried my best to stay calm well that was until she said this. "Well you look like  a boy". How come someone so small and innocent annoy me so much, well thats what i think i was feeling i was a but distraught at that time and my emotions were everywhere. 'Than why did you ask then huh?' I thought but i couldnt being myself to say it so i just said, "well what is a girl suppose to look like than?" And she just started listing off all the steryotypes girls had been placed into.

That experience stayed with me my whole life and it raised the question 'what if i said i was a boy?', what would have happened if i said that?.

My name is Kaiden Lara and this is my story.

Thank you.