Only me in my head

This was supposed to forever remain a draft, idk why I'm posting it rn.. its very long and I apologize beforehand if there are any mistakes. Feel free to correct me if the plot is inconsistent or something. If something was changed from the original movie plot, that was intentional.

Thank you for reading. Enjoy 😊

[Eddie's POV]

The first time I experienced death, it wasn't when I was attacked by Maria. Surprisingly, that incident gave me a reason to hope. To be happy. That incident gave me my Other. My Venom.

And it wasn't when I lost my job. It wasn't when I lost Annie. Yes, those were horrible times, but I managed. The first time I experienced that feeling took it to the very literal form

The first time I experienced death was when I died.
I remember the feeling so vividly. It wasn't something I hadn't felt before, but it felt.. final. It felt bigger than all the times I've felt it before

There was this buzzing in my chest, eating away at my lungs. It resembled how I felt when I had one of those horrible panic attacks. The ones worse then the rest. Buzzing, dizziness and eventual pain

This pain wasn't the same, unsurprisingly. And when I looked down at my chest -how I hoped I didn't- I saw something that resembled a spear, coming out of it. Sprouting from it like a plant would from the soil

I heard Riot's roaring behind me and I wondered 'Where was Venom?' I wasn't blaming him for my fate, no. I was worried. It didn't have a suitable host here- it didn't have a host here at all, compatible or not

There was Anne, of course. I knew she was here, I was aware of her being there after we'd left her in the forest and I knew Venom was aware as well. It's due to his keen senses I realized that in the first place

'She could be his temporary host. That was good. I hope she can make it fast enough'
Even through my resolve, I reached my hand out
Hopelessly trying to reach something, someone, some entity that now meant the world to me

I closed my eyes and focused on my body. Was I going to make it? Was I going to live long enough to have the confirmation? To see Anne and Venom become one? I needed to.

My legs and arms felt cold. Like my entire existence consisted of the pain in my chest and my thoughts. That was all that was left of me

Then I felt something.. someone.. some goo touch the very tips of my fingers and felt hope reignite within me. A surge of.. of.. a feeling I couldn't explain. I was happy, glad, sad, fond, excited

I pushed my hand as far as I could, reaching towards them. Towards my Venom and then I felt the same flash of heat and pain of Venom's healing powers, fixing my broken human body

They tugged the spear-like weapon out of our chest and roared. In anger. In frustration. In warning

The second time I felt that dreaded feeling was when Riot and Carlton were defeated. I was happy, giddy even as we dropped

My stomach flipped as we fell down to the water, but I was sure Venom would protect me. Protect us. The rocket was still exploding behind us, and I felt hot and everything was aching

As we fell down from the clouds, my left side was practically on fire from the heat of the explosion and the tug of gravity had never felt so harsh

The air was chilly and besides the blinding light above Vee, the sky was inky black. Venom decided to make himself a parachute and I could see parts of him disintegrating. Before I could smile or tell them "we did it", I saw them slowly dissolve