Daddy's Girl

chapter 5

'where is my daughter?!' my dad responds.

'shes here shes here' he answers calmly  as he faces me and winks. 'Im gonna pay you back' i hear clearly from the other end of the line. 'Now you know how we do business steve' bad breath says before sending out a brief evil laugh. 

'just let me speak to her' my dad pleads before the man placed the phone beside my ear after sending me a rather nauseating air kiss. My face still burnt from the slap i got earlier reminding me that i should not try anything smart. 

'Emma?..' my dad calls from the other end of the phone, although his still so far away from me his voice warmed me up and gave me hope that maybe i might just be saved and everything would go back to normal.

Apart from his unsteady breathing he stayed silent on the other line as if speechless and tongue tied which i think he was. 

Soon tears started scribbling down my face sadly, i couldnt believe the situation we were in and did not even see what time everything escalated. 

'daddy' i whispered through the phone, probably sounding like a 5 year old but i did not care i was so vulnerable and desperate to just hear his voice after who knows how long. It made me feel a bit better but.. i needed to know the truth about my dad, about my life. 

'Are you okay baby?' he responded. 'daddy is it true though?' i ask ignoring his question, holding a lump in my throat from unshed tears.

'Is is what true baby? what are you talking about honey'? he pleads his voice filled with confusion. 'about the drug dealer stuff that that you you were a bad person..n ' i hicupped my eyes now soaked with tears.

'yes baby its true' he sighed, 'it was to protect you baby, i did not have a choice' he continued. Soon a waterfall of tears came crashing down as i sobbed uncontrollably.

i felt like all the walls i pulled up in the past after so long of standing have crumbled and was now falling  down, destroying everything and anything in its path. At that current moment i was a wrecking ball of tears. 

'Drug dealers were the ones who killed your momma' he sobbed, it was like he was just letting everything go, everything he had been hiding in the past away from me it was like this was his breaking point he just gave up. 

I sat in that chair rocking up and down all the while he spoke i just gave him the deaf ear. Tears scribbled down  my eyes one after another while i quivered in agony, my heart all the way down to my feet and my breathing suffocated by fear and shock. 

Dad kept on speaking and calling my name whiles his sobs were clearly heard but nothing he said could draw me out of my state until he muttered barely audible.

'Your momma died to save you' and that was the last thing i heard from dad before the phone was taken away and the man threatened to kill me if dad did not pay him back in 24 hours. 

i contemplated on what dad said, beads of sweat forming on my forehead with my head spinning in circles. 

'your momma died to save you' i replayed in my mind as a tear drop fell from my cheeks and crashed to the floor in a thud.