"Brother" // Jachary

Stupid Decisions

Zach's POV

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You don't know how much it hurt, hearing him call me his best friend and then saying the words "I love you." It was like a (butt cheek on a stick) stab in the heart. He cares so much that he thinks he's helping but in reality it's just making my heart ache a thousand times more. Aching, aching for him.

"I love you too." I say back, trying my best to keep myself together.

"Lets go back home." Jack says and I nod while standing up from the swing, as Jack does the same.

We walk to the car and get in. The ride back home was pretty silent. Well actually we didn't talk at all. Jack was focused on the road and I looked out the window thinking and just thinking. How long will it take for me to tell him I love him and not in the way I told him, but in the way that I'm actually in love with him. I hope he realizes it because I don't know how long it will take for me to own up to my band mate and tell him I have feelings.

Feelings for that gorgeous smile that I so rarely see on him. The jokes he tells and his quirkiness. I didn't want a guy with big muscles and a six pack. All I wanted was him.
Jack Avery.

ーーーーーーJack's P.O.V.ーーーーーーーーー

I was still crawled up in my bed, holding my blanket close to my chest. As I went over that memory in my head that I had so distinctly remembered. I really wish I was as strong as Zach. After he came out to me. He eventually told the rest of the band, his family, then the fans.

One day I remember coming back home from my family's house in L.A. Zach lived right next door to me. I walked past his door that day. And I remember feeling my heart practically crack in half. There was a guy who came out of Zach's door. His hair was all messed up, and he had a hickey on his neck. His lips were chapped as were they swollen. And he quickly left Zach's apartment. I should've just told Zach how I felt that day, but I couldn't do that. So instead I did something I'd regret for the rest of my life.

I walked into my home and slid down the door. My knees up to my chest, my arms holding them tight. I sobbed at the fact that I'd knew I would never have him.

I went out that night, did a few things I regret. Got drunk, took some random person home, slept with them, and told them to leave when the morning comes. I kinda just gave up on finding love that night. After that night I did the same thing over and over again. Got drunk, slept with somebody, and told them to go home in the morning. I took up smoking. I'd show up to band rehearsals late. I was falling off my path, only to be faced with the worst later on and I knew I deserved it.

The person in my bed tonight, I've forgotten his name. He heard me crying, and wrapped his arm around me tightly. "Are you okay?" He asked sincerely, but I didn't want his sympathy.

"Yeah, I just couldn't sleep and I think I have something in my eye. Go back to bed." He stroked my hair and said a simple, "Ok." As he fell peacefully back to sleep. I was thinking, what I could do to get this off my mind. So I wiped my tears and stood up quietly from my bed. I put on boxers and a t-shirt. Then I sneakily snuck out the door.

I went to Zach's and waited outside his door, waiting for the right moment. Don't judge, I'm just being spontaneous. I knocked on his door and waited awhile, as he probably woke up from his slumber. He opened his door with a robe wrapped around his waist and chest. "Jack? What are you doing here?"

"Is anybody here with you?" I ask, ignoring his questions.

"No, why?"

"Good, may I come in?"

"Uh sure." He says, more sounding unsurely because I've been ignoring his questions, but he still lets me in. "Jack, it's like 2 in the morning what are you doing here?"

"I'm not sure."

"Jack, you have a answer, just answer my que-." I stared at his lips, as he spoke and right before he spoke another word. I smashed my lips onto his.

It took him a moment to kiss back, but eventually he caved in and wrapped his arms around my neck, moving his lips against mine. I wrapped mine around his waist, pulling him closer.

I had no clue what I was doing, because I was in love with Zach I never had sex with someone I truly loved. So I just picked him up and he wrapped his legs around my waist and I licked his lips. I turned around and pushed his back onto the door, closing it as he moved his hips against mine. I started kissing down his neck, until I found his sweet spot and that beautiful noise escaped his lips and I bit down lightly.

"Bed." He said slightly out of breath and I turned us around. Slowly walking to his bed in the studio apartment. I set him down on the bed carefully and crawled on top of him. He put his hands under my shirt and pulled it off. So I unwrapped his robe and started kissing down to his collarbone, as once again those beautiful moans escaped his lips as he gripped onto my hair.

Little did I know that may have been the stupidest decision of my life. You didn't think everything would be okay after that, did you? Because that night broke me even more.