Bleeding Heart

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           I'm tired and alone waiting for the bus. To my new school. Wow, this is crap. Absolute crap. Why do I of all people, the already super socially awkward and friendless girl. The loner. A eleventh grade loser. God why does everyone hate me? Give me FREAKING strength. Nah I don't believe in that, but still. 

       I'm waiting for the bus to go to school, in my Avenged Sevenfold sweatshirt and black pants, and its super freaking hot, great!  Minnesota girl, pale and burns easily in California... the world of hot and tan, buff and fat. I don't even know why I came here with Dad... I should've stayed with mom.  Well... should have, could have, would have, but.. didn't. Time to get my ass in gear and get to the school. The bus arrives and I walk on the bus shakes a bit. Every ones starring at me, some more than others, except for one. I was relieved there was one non on looker, I sat next to him and a few guys looked shocked and disappointed and a few girls giggled with those stupid high pitch voices. I put my ear buds in and look up at the roof of the bus closing my eyes. I feel a pair of eyes on me, studying me, my eyes open and its the guy on the other side of the bus. I take an earbud out and look at him. 

"Is something wrong?" I say a tad violated by his wandering eyes. 

He finally answers in a deeper voice, but definitely not manly.  "Just gazing upon the fresh meat~ What grade?" 

I roll my eyes. "What's it to you?" and I pronunciate the 'you' 

He chuckles, "Well isn't someone feisty~" 

"No I just don't care to speak with people right now." I say aggravated now. 

He scoffs and is about to say something and hes cut off by a deep voice. "She doesn't want to talk, so leave her alone." 

I got the chills and the hairs on the back of my neck stood up. I looked to where the voice was coming from and it was the guy I was sitting with. My eyes widen with surprise. 

"You talk?" I say a little shocked.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I?" He says annoyed by it all.

"Yeah well I never asked for your help. But thanks anyways.. I guess" the bus stops and jolts as I say this and I get up and walk out of the bus and a hand grabs me before I can get far enough away. 

"Hey what are you doing? Let go of my arm!" I say panicked and annoyed. 

"Just hold on a second! Why do you run like you're embarrassed or something?" the deep voice asks demanding. I look up at him, wow he's pretty. Gah! what am I thinking this guy is holding you by brute force!

"Let me show you to the office.. Please" he asks feeling bad and letting go of my arm. "I'm Jaxen, but my friends call me Jax." he says trying to make peace. 

"You have friends?" I say to get back at him for saying I was embarrassed. 

He sighs and nods, " Okay, I deserved that, but please can I show you?" 

I sigh and nod. "Fine, and my name is Blaire, I don't have any friends" I mentally hit myself for blurting that out and starts walking. "Well are you coming?" the one they call Jaxen follows me to the gates and shows me the way to the office, where I get my schedule. I look up at him. 

"Uh.. can you help me find my classes please.." I look down and away embarrassed.

He smiles and nods snatching my schedule from my hands and nods, "We have a lot of the same classes, Homeroom, first, second, not third, but fourth we do. Okay, then I'll just walk with you to your classes. 

"It's fine, you can just show me now and then I'll handle it." I nod. 

He shakes his head in disapproval and says, "No I will walk you to your classes." 

"Don't you have a girlfriend or something?" I say and look at him.

" Yeah, but she'll be fine for one day." My heart suddenly sank at that 'yeah', I don't know why but it just hurt to hear that. 

"I'm fine, I do things alone all the time why can't I now?" 

"I don't think it's a good idea right now since you caught Jake Taylor's fancy." he nods up as if to show me the guy harassing me in on the bus. 

"ew, him?" He nods and escorts me to our homeroom class. 

"Are you sure it's me he's after?", I laugh as  I see Jake glaring at Jaxen. Oh this is rich. 

Jaxen laughs and shakes his head nodding in Jake's direction showing me that he's right back to starring at me. "Damn it!", I say a bit unsettled and sigh. Jaxen looks at me then back at Jake and glares at him. Huh.. who would be so worried for some random girl? Oh well. 

"Jaxen right? Well It was a swell time, but you should get back to your girl. I can handle myself. I'll see you at lunch. Okay?" I say confident really meaning what I said. He chuckles and a tint of pink grows on my face. "Wh- what's so funny?" I glare up at him. 

"Oh nothing, it's funny I never give a crap about anyone... but I give a crap about you. Plus we have most of the same classes so you get to deal with me anyways!" He says smiling and walking into the class and i shake my head and give up. 

"Alright I guess I'll let you walk with me." I say snarky and smirk. He looks up at me sitting in an empty desk and smiles. 

"Oh thank you ma'am. I'm very pleased to hear you will let ME walk you." He laughs and nods to the seat next to him but someone pushes me out of the way making me lose my balance. "Gah!" I fall and look like a moron and sigh. It's a girl, she looks at Jaxen and smiles, then glares down at me and I smile. 

"Thank you for reminding me why I don't talk to people..." I mumble and I get up dust myself off and walks to the back of the class sitting in a non occupied seat. Jaxen looks at the girl and kisses her cheek. Oh, great that psycho is his loon? Fantastic. I'm stayin' away. 

"Hey you're in my spot." a non developed male voice said and I look up. It's Jake... Just my luck...

"Sorry." I say aggravated and he realizes it's me. "Oh! It's fine heh.. you can sit there." He looks down at me in aw and I just get up and walk away. He frowns and plops down as if he was a little kid who didn't get what he wanted that year for Christmas. I sit on the opposite side of the class and I feel as if eyes are on me and I look up. It was Jaxens grey- blue eyes, burning a hole into me, watching my every move. I look back raising a brow and then I look away. I put my pencil in my mouth and gnaw on it as a stress reliever. Real attractive Blaire... Oh well I guess. The teacher comes in and introduces himself as Mr. Halter. He's a younger man, maybe early 30's. Probably just got this job, he seems really nervous. Huh... who knew.. a teacher nervous. Are these kids that awful? I look around and some are snickering and others were on their phones. Poor guy. 

He says, "S-So how was everyone's summer break?" He's shaking and looks for someone to be his saving grace. Damn me for being nice! I slowly raise my hand and see his eyes light up, looking my way. 

"So your name is, dear? And what did you do over your summer break?" he says proudly and I feel good about it.  

"Oh, I am Blaire. I just transferred from Minnesota," I say with a heavy accent. "I really didin't do anything but pack and such" I smile awkwardly and I see Jaxen Smiling at me in the corner of my eye as well as Jake checking me out. Disgusting pervert. 

"Thank you for sharing Blaire, I'm glad to be your teacher this year of your adjustment. I will help in anyway I can", he smiles and looks around. "Anyone else?", I sit down and sigh. I look over at Jaxen and he's talking to his girlfriend. That crazy bitch. He makes eye contact with me and I stare back not wanting to lose this time. I smirk staring him down and then we are interrupted by Mr. Halter.

"So I have a seating chart, so I need everyone up and off to the sides while I  call your name", he smiles and up until the back row, I hear "Jaxen", then "Blaire", and finally "Jake". Great couldn't get much better then this! I look over at Jaxen and he's smirking. Damn him... I look over at Jake and he's in awe still... moron... I plop down in the middle and look at Mr. Halter like it's the end of the world, but he doesn't notice. This should be exciting...