Baby , you are mine
Even after my death
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I asked him not to play play cards but who am I that he will listen to , he never did or ever will
But he at least should listen to me for one year only till next February
Today I scolded him so badly and he deserves that he totally deserves
I am hurt and I cried my heart out saying " You never listen to me ( me sobbing hard ) and I just got time till next February but you are not giving me time , after 3 days you will be traveling all way New York and me here all alone for 3 month and then after I would just have 9 months with you , I need you but you are playing stupid play card "
I was sobbing and screaming at him
I already cried so bad that he panicked and I was myself loosing balance
Anyways my cry was reasonable , totally reasonable because my heart who he owns will vanish little and little each day , doctor told I just have time till February
I know I am dramatic at times , today also I somehow was , I blackmailed him
And result is, after my blackmailing who doesn't agree but this time my crying worked as bonus point too and he told we are traveling to some place and it was a total surprise
I love him , his suprise , his heart which beats for me , his undying love for someone who is dying soon
I love him with my vanishing heart , I still remember how I met him first time , I was getting late for bus, my eyes fell on someone tall standing on other side of road , he was tall and handsome , he was looking pissed of that day
Our story is not less than any movie, it has a romance of Titanic and it will have tragic climax Romeo and Juliet
I wanted to marry him as fast as possible , he didn't want because he could not give time to his wife if we married at that time , marring him was my dream , it almost had become my passion
After some days I started pain in my chest and started feeling uncomfortable , we went to doctor , he talked to doctor privately that day he was pissed off and I asked him why was is so , he didn't replied I tried he didn't , doctor gave me some medicine it made me feel better
Right next day he woke up he was saying I need to talk to you about marriage I agreed , I knew he didn't slept after we returned form doctor
Time flies we got married , after some time I started vomiting everything I ate with contrast of blood
I asked him don't worry I will be all right slowly nothing was getting better
One day he called me and said about my heart disease I was shattered , I regreted to marry him because my relationship had no future and I asked him why he did so he just told " I saw the dream of getting dress up as bride in your heart , I saw passion in your eyes for becoming my wife , I never can afford to make you sad because you are everything have ..if I told you about all the things you would never agree to marry me "
I fought with him for while, I calmed down after some days
I thank god daily for giving me him , I couldn't be more grateful for everything
He is my king not because he owns be but because he really knows me
I was deep in battling with my thought , I heard some romantic music and came back to real world
He asked me what I was thinking , I said you are all I could think of
He smiled at me being cheesy
The place we went tonight was place of my dream , he knew before I die I had dream of being in a date
The place was beautiful , as beautiful as of movie , he knew I didn't drink wine or it was not good for health but also wine glass was kept there
He pour coffee on glass I was impressed
To be honest , he was cheesy and crazy , he was emotional especially for me , he loved me like I could not imagine someone did
The date was so relaxing so needed , he was also flying aboard for 3 month,I would miss him
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I closed my eyes slowly , he said to open , i didn't want to open , I was going for my surgery , I didn't wanna see operation theatre or me pulled down into it , I didn't wanna be in pain I just wanted to die in peace
He promised me I will be fine after this surgery and I didn't trust him , it was just a try of saving me which was wroth less , I said him don't hope of me getting back it would only hurt I wont be back
He said I was stupid to think all it , he asked me to kiss him , I did for last time maybe
Yesterday I spoke all my heart to him , I guess he was also hurt after listening to me
Now I closed my eyes in front of him forever
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Days aren't happy as happy it use to be when I was sick
Everything feels hollow still then I survived
I did and I am living my dream in just one month I have started organization
But I feel selfish and I blame him
I blame him for giving me his heart
I blame him for killing me inside by keeping me alive
I blame him for killing himself just to open my eyes
If I had known I would have never let him do this
Life always has been cruel with me , because when I had him I didn't have my dream , when I have dream I don't have him
My dream is nothing in comparison to his life
I wanted to suicide the time I searched for him and I didn't find him in hospital , I asked some nurse they said nothing but rest . I knew he gave heart to me and I wanted to suicide but I didn't because
He was dead for me , I can't kill him and his heart again
I just can't , I still feel sinful
People say there lover is in their heart , in my case he actually is exist in my heart
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