My Boyfriend For 365 Days

Depression???

Though, some may think I'm a person that is very bubbly, in the inside I'm not. Truth is, back in middle school I had some friends, I was friends with them for 2 years..... Until they thought I was always controlling them and stuff. And I'm okay with that, it's just that what upset me the most was them not telling me anything and just started avoiding me. But, there was one friend that stood by me and said it was boring without me hanging out with them, and she also confessed all the things my other " friends " said about me. And yeah, that scarred me and I don't think that scar will ever fade. Because what hurt me the most was.... They talked behind my back... They called my too arrogant and that I was narcissistic. They just could've said that to my face. Because this my personality, my body, my soul. So even though they talk bad about me... That's their opinion, so now I can't trust people as easy as that anymore. This is the reason I had lost the power to trust people.... Also I had lost my parents when u was young...The one who called me down was my legal Guardian meaning she adopted me... And my big brother? He's my step brother he always bullied me and physically harm me, but I can't do anything about it.. I'm okay with it cause they did adopt me the least I could do is follow their orders...
That's all I can do for the next last few months I can live until I leave this world permanently.... I mean I already cut myself so what's the point of stopping when I know I'll die anyway....
Wassup! Hiiii, OK so this ain't a chapter, this is just a little bit of Ranjin's background. SOOOO yeah, hope you enjoyed the first 2 chapters.