Can I Do This?

Chapter 1

"Hey Lyd, how you doing?" Jaxson, Caleb's best mate ask while walking up to me as I'm getting out of my car. I shrug because I know why he's asking. I know by the time I get into school, I'm going to be getting that and 'I'm sorry' from everyone. I fix my sleeves of my purple plaid button up shirt and brush off dust from my black skinny jeans and mess with my hair a bit. 

"You ready?" He asks when I got done messing with my hair and outfit. I take off a loose string of Caleb's shirt that I kept and pulled the tongue of my purple Supras then took a piece of lint off my jeans that I won't be able to wear in a few months.

"Yeah, I guess so." I tell him while not making eye contact. He moves closer to me and gives me a hug and rubs my back gently. I wrap my arms around his waist and a tear escapes while he pulls away with the pad of his thumb.

"No crying, okay?" He speaks softly looking into my eyes. "I'll try." I spoke looking at my shoes and felt him kiss my head. We start walking up to the school and everyone looks and gives us sad smiles. I really don't want to be here, I just want to be home instead of receiving sympathy smiles from students and staff. I grab my dark purple beanie from my bag and put it on while Jason walks me to my locker.

"Thanks Jax. I got it from here." I tell him as we got to my locker. "Okay. If you need anything, just come find me." I nod. Him and the guys on the football team that are in my year know about the baby. At the funeral, I gave a speech about him and told everyone that I was pregnant and that Caleb's the dad, so by now I bet the whole school knows. I open my locker and grabbed my stuff for first, second and third hour and headed to Maths. I walk in and find Sam sitting in the back, she waves to me and points to the seat next to her. I walk over to her and sat my stuff down on the desk next to her and sat down laying my head down on my arms looking at her.

"Tired?" She asks smiling, well more like smirking at me. "No, whatever gave you that idea?" I spoke sarcastically, rolling my eyes trying to keep them open. She chuckles and pats my shoulder. Sam and I have been best friends since we were babies. Our mums' were best friends since they were in Year 8 and all the way through Uni and still are to this day. The bell rings and students file in finding seats next to their friends, then the teacher comes in.

"Hello class, welcome back. I'm Mrs. Sheppard." She introduces herself while getting stuff out of her bag then passed out the syllabus for the year. She finishes roll call when there's a knock at the door, when Mrs. Sheppard opens it the principle walks in and smiles at us.

"Hello students, we have two new students with us this year. They are from Ireland, you may enter Mr. Horan and Mr. Tomlinson." He moves aside as they entered, one boy has blonde hair with green tips, dressed in all black with snakebites, gauges, and tattoos littered up his arms and neck; the other boy has black hair with red tips, black skinny jeans and a red V-Neck t-shirt with his lip pierced and gauges as well.

"Class this is Niall," He gestures to the blonde. "And this is his brother Louis." He gestures to the black haired lad. I just sit there with my mouth open slightly. Sam must of seen my face because she snaps her fingers in my face to pull me from my trance. 

"Lyd, Lydia!" She whisper shouts. I snap out of it and looked at her. "You okay?" I  nod and lean closer to her. "The blonde with the blue eyes," She nods, telling me to go on. "That's him, the blonde from the dreams I've been having for the past two weeks." He eyes widen when she looks at him again and turns back to me. "Holy shit, he matches exzactly like you told me, well except the hair was blue instead of green but everything else is the same. What did you say his name was in the dreams?" She asks trying to remember as she looked at the blonde again.

"That's the thing, he never told me a name. He only knew mine." I whispered as I looked back at and forth from her and the blonde lad. "Ms. Sullivan? Can we speak in the hallway for a moment?" Mr. Venturi politely asks. The whole class 'oohs' and he chuckles. "No she is not in trouble. I need to make sure of something." He explains to the class then looks at me. I nod and get up from my seat and headed to the hallway with him right behind me. "I just wanted to make sure your schedule is at your best need. Like no Gym or Home Mec. and all of that." I nod and handed him my schedule, from my back pocket, so he can see for himself if everything is okay. "Good, you may go back to class now. Oh I'm very sorry for your loss, the door to the counselor's office is always open for you." I nod again not really feeling up for talking, he nods and lays his hand on my shoulder and walks away with a small goodbye. I open the door and walked back to my seat when I saw the two new lads sitting behind Sam and I. I ignore them and sat down.