There I was standing in a room in a black dress with high heels looking down into a coffin at someone.There was a number on the coffin. 28 was the lucky number. What could this mean.All I could see was that it was a woman but who? I don't know. Her face was blurry but pale. Her skin as hard as stone but as cold as ice. This is the nightmare I kept getting at the age of 10.
I'm 14 now and still dont know who that woman is. I stopped getting the nightmares. Today is the big day 17January 2017 my first day of Highschool. Standing in my green and white uniform to scared to walk into the school grounds not sure what to do. "Off you go, you will be fine the school is not that bad" My older sister told me " Phone me if you need anything my dear. Remember I love you" my mom told me as she gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek and returned to the car. I watched them as they left the school grounds amd turned around and walked on. *this is not to bad* i thought to myself *it is quite nice. I like it here*
Months passed and I didn't dream that weird dream again. Terrible things have happend in these few months. My stepdad has lost his job and my mother did not work at all. We prayed that things would get better that we wpuld be happy again when finally one day my stepdad got a job offer in Johannesburg. A few days later my mom got a job offer at the same place as my stepdad. We discussed and said that I had to finish my term in Rustenburg and then all of us could move to Johannesburg until then my sister and I must stay in Rustenburg. We all agreed to this and our lives went on.
It was July 19 2017 when my mother and stepdad moved to johannesburg.My dream came back but this time worse than before. I would cry myself awake during the night and screaming why shakeing of furry but I don't know why. My sister and I didn't know what was going on but we just left it. She made me sleep in the room with her and it went better since then. August 19 2017 I had the same dream but this time Someone els was with me in the room and I was not standing but sitting in a armchair with my face burried in my arms crying and screaming with pain. The person next to me was looking at the person in the coffin and kept saying the following" I love you".
I still didn't know who that person was lying in the coffin but I was crying my heart out.
I woke up the following day my eyes feeling puffy. I told my sister about my strange dream and all that she could say is that it was just a nightmare. But the only strange thing was is that this dream felt real but I didn't tell her that. I kept my mouth shut and went to school.
12 september 2017 A week before school ends I phoned my mother telling her that its only one week then I'm with her only one week then I will be staying with her again. But staying with her never came.
19 September I had that dream again this time worse than ever the pain really bad alot of people next to me in my dream, next to the coffin. I knew something was not right.
6:00AM Time for school I grab my phone and message my mom "Almost weekend yay! Can't wait to see you" she read but didn't reply. I kept sending her messages until I got a phone call from my granmother. My sister and I looked at the phone shocked not sure if we should answer or not. We answerd and this is what my gran said"Im sorry but... But your mother is no longer with us she commited suicide last night" My sister dropped to her knees and I ran going crazy both of us hopeing its a dream or a joke.
28 September 2017 My sister and I are standing next to my mothers coffin looking inside it.
Her face pale, hard as stone but as cold as ice
28 was the lucky number that we burried my mother.
One year later my stepdad threw us away. We're staying our biological father. 3November 2018 is our mothers birthday in heaven.
Guess what today is that day. Happy B-day mom
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