[Luke's POV]
At night when its dark and I'm alone at home, I get my best friend out of the bathroom and place it on my skin. I push down and drag it across my wrists.
Letting the pain take over, i smile because i can fill the pain.
I'm always numb.
I don't really talk to people because i don't trust myself.
I always say the wrong stuff and make people mad.
And I don't want to get to close to someone that will leave me.
Everyone leaves me and I'm sick of it...
When I'm done after about 20 cuts I put the blade in my hiding spot and clean off the blood, pull down my sleeve and walk back to my room, lay down and start thinking.
Instantly I feel warm tears run down my cheek.
I think more.
Tomorrow is the first day of school, 11th grade I'm 16
I'm gay and nobody wants a gay kid
My mum never talks to me... We haven't talked science last year when I came out
My dad passed away when I was 13 in a car accident
My life is a living hell. you would hate being me...
I'm such a fuckup
Its 1am and I'm crying myself to sleep like always and I honestly don't want to go to school tomorrow but I have to.
I feel my eyelids get heavy and before I know it I'm asleep drifting into a nightmare...
📍Hiiiii! This is my first chapter and I know it sucks...
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In The Dark (Lashton/5SOS AU Fanfic)
FanfictionDarkness takes over at night My demonds come out to play They take over And I let them Pain. I need to feel pain. Lighters and razors Skin I burn my own skin, I cut my own skin and the demonds leave No more feeling numb Just pain. If you use thi...