In The Dark (Lashton/5SOS AU Fanfic)

In The Dark (Luke Hemming /5SOS AU FanFic)

[Luke's POV]

At night when its dark and I'm alone at home, I get my best friend out of the bathroom and place it on my skin. I push down and drag it across my wrists.

Letting the pain take over, i smile because i can fill the pain.

I'm always numb.

I don't really talk to people because i don't trust myself.

I always say the wrong stuff and make people mad.

And I don't want to get to close to someone that will leave me.

Everyone leaves me and I'm sick of it...

When I'm done after about 20 cuts I put the blade in my hiding spot and clean off the blood, pull down my sleeve and walk back to my room, lay down and start thinking.

Instantly I feel warm tears run down my cheek.

I think more.

Tomorrow is the first day of school, 11th grade I'm 16

I'm gay and nobody wants a gay kid

My mum never talks to me... We haven't talked science last year when I came out

My dad passed away when I was 13 in a car accident

My life is a living hell. you would hate being me...

I'm such a fuckup

Its 1am and I'm crying myself to sleep like always and I honestly don't want to go to school tomorrow but I have to.

I feel my eyelids get heavy and before I know it I'm asleep drifting into a nightmare...

📍Hiiiii! This is my first chapter and I know it sucks...

Please let me know what you think about it and tell me what I need to fix!

Thanks for reading!xx📍