you were the love of my life.
i don't know how we parted so easily. the days leading up to it were normal and uneventful as usual. as we parted, it almost seemed as though we were never friends. as though, i didn't know your darkest secrets and you didn't know my fears.
it all went so fast.
i told you i was leaving and you simply said okay. you accepted it so easily and i let you. in the weeks after that, i felt numb. distracting myself with those around me and not even glancing at you. i knew if i did, it'd all be over.
you changed.
when we were apart, i felt free. free from a force holding me down and keeping me from flying. maybe i was just blinded by the love i had for you, or the love you had for me. without that force holding us together i could see who you really were.
it doesn't matter.
i still miss you. i still miss holding your hand and telling you everything. i still miss the tone of your voice when you said my name or called me baby. i miss the way you always made me laugh and told me you loved me.
you're still the love of my life.
i let you go. in the end, i didn't fight. we may never had what we used to have but i will never forget you. i will never forget you asking for a kiss on the cheek as a goodbye or me whining for your hand as i calmed my anxiety.
i'm so sorry.
i left you and for that, i will never forgive myself. i think that maybe it was the right choice. maybe it was better for me and you both. all i know is, i hope you have a good life.
i hope you always smile and the person you love treats you well. this is the end for what was us. i'm sorry my love.
