(nov 4)
i spilled my heart
and now i feel woozy and
have those eclipses always
been in your eyes?
i swear there were
stars in there before
have i finally gone mad?if i were to die today
i'd want it to rain
so the ocean can mourn
in a dainty way
but would you even
remember me by then
or has your memory of me
already been washed away?we rolled over suburban
lawns soaking from heavy
sprinklers at dawn
a drought's coming,
i can see it through russets
and russets of leaves
on anti-birch trees
as i followed your voice
to cosmic immortality.riding bikes on the
hill is our own panacea
your mother called your name
from below and that
was the last time i've
seen you since.i've never tumbled alone
but life's preparing me
for much worse so
i'll just think of you
on the way down.it's been months now
crushing ants with my feet
high knee socks burning wildfire
and skater boys skate
with their heads afloat on
women twice their age
it's been five months now
do i really cross your mind
as often as you say?
or is that just a way of saying
you've already moved on
and i should too?
but i witness seasons change
when no one else would
so it's hard for me to not
think about you
when summer's still
rippling in my veins.saffrons were in between
your eyes whenever
we made eye contact
but that was when the azul
sky was still seeping in
through the gap between
us when we sat down
in that same bathroom stall
for a brisk moment in time.that felt so long ago, and it was
but i won't complain if the
letters stop coming in the mail
but if i feel you forgetting
the halcyon eleven o'clock
conversations and after school
strolls on metal fences
then that's when my being
will start to rot.