Reality Check UNDER EDIT

7. Chaos

Niall POV:

As soon as Zayn left my room, I was sitting there in complete and utter shock. I was dumbfounded! What the hell am I doing! I don't even know if I have feelings for other mates or if it is just Zayn himself. What's happening? Have I even been myself lately? Sometimes I can't even tell. I think back to the past couple of days and all I see is every thing blurred together. And not in a good way. Not only am I going on a date with this bloke, but he kissed me? What in the right mind was he thinking! Maybe this is all a trick you know? Someone already beat me up, what if it's all a game to him. I'm just his little play you toy for a while. Or maybe he genuinely cares. But as of right now I can't think straight. That seems to be a common emotion when it comes to Zayn. Always not being able to think. It's like when I'm with him all the common sense flushes out of my system and I'm left there to contemplate the emotions and outcomes afterwards. I should probably get some sleep. I'm rambling aren't I? Oh great, I'm going crazy talking to myself too. Yeah, go to bed Niall before you pronounce yourself as a crazy nut job.

"I love you Niall, and these last two months wouldn't have been the same if I hadn't met you. I know you think all of this is still crazy and your emotions have been haywire but just know that these past two months have been nothing but perfection and utter joy with you..I cannot tell you how much I've fallen in love with you.."

I woke up in complete sweat with a rosy blush running across my cheeks. That dream..it only made me more confused and conflicted with my emotions. Why would I dream about him, again! He just can't leave my mind and, honestly, it's been driving me crazy to the point where I don't even know what I feel. The worst part is, I woke up with strange feeling in my chest and I don't like it one bit. Which reminds me; I have a date today...with Zayn. Do I dress up for dates like this? I mean, wouldn't it just be like hanging out why the football lads or? Why am I even thinking about this? Maybe I if I look like a complete mess and I will scare him away. Probably not, he seemed pretty confident and determined about this whole thing working out. I guess the only thing I can do today is keep my self occupied so I can stop thinking about this date.

Zayn's POV:

The night I left Niall's room I couldn't help but feel the sensation of happiness travel throughout my body. Probably one of the biggest smiles and grins I've had in a long time and it was all because of that Irish lad. I honestly don't what I am getting myself into anymore. I know I could never like a guy but when it comes to Niall, I just don't know anymore. It's like a thousands fire flies are set free when I am around him. It's as if I don't have to hide anything around him. But I love it. I love being so carefree and so me around him.

This whole ordeal only makes me want to make this date with Niall one that's going to knock his socks off. I don't know why he seems so confused by all of this. I mean, hell, I am confused as well but I think I am learning to except my emotions and feelings towards him. This whole night was all out on a whim. The talk this Niall, the kissing, the whispering in his ear. I know that I had a effect on him only because he had an effect on me as well. I'm blooming with ideas and what to do with this date but I am also dying to tell someone about it. I know I can't tell anyone. Not a single soul but I have to tell someone. Maybe I can talk to Nolan again. I know what he did Niall was unspeakable but he apologized and felt deeply sorry for what he did. So that's what I'm going to do. I'll ring Nolan up and talk to him about all of this. Maybe he can even help out with this whole date ordeal.

I woke up the following day feelings so excited! Nolan helped me out so much and he didn't question the fact that i was taking Nialll, a mate, on a date. He just helped me out completly with the whole planning thing. I still can't believe the happiness I am feeling for tonight. I'm hoping everything goes as planned.