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Chapter 4

Tearney

It was around 8 o'clock in the morning and I was just now getting up from my phone ringing from a facetime request. I seen it was from Raine and fixed myself up a little bit before answering. Jermaine's face popped up on the screen and I couldn't do anything but smile. I miss my little boy so much. I hate that it has to be like this, but it's not safe over where I'm at, so I guess this is alright.

"Hi mommy! What you doing?" He smiled big and I noticed that he was missing a tooth.

"Hi baby, I'm not doing anything and where is your tooth at?" I covered my mouth and yawned. I was still sleepy as ever.

"Oh mommy, it's gone. It fell out one night when me and daddy was eating chicken." I laughed. I can't believe my baby is missing his first tooth and I missed out on it. I looked over at Raine who was now in the camera looking at me with his seductive, deep brown eyes. His hair was looking nice and curly on top of his head and I just remember the days when we were so in love.

"So, how's everything been going Tear?" I shook my head already getting frustrated just thinking about it. But, I didn't want him to worry so I just acted like everything was cool.

"It's going so far, we got something we're just deciding on when to go for it." He nodded his head and I turned my attention back to Jermaine who was looking all up in the camera.

"Mommy misses you baby boy." He pouted his lips and I already knew what was up.

"I'm not a baby mommy but I miss you too. Daddy, you miss mommy too?" I looked at Raine and he was looking at Maine with a surprised look on his face shocked that Jermaine actually asked him that.

"Yeah buddy, I miss mommy a lot." I blushed and shook my head. He had to be lying.

"Well, do you love mommy too?" I choked while I looked at Raine and he was already looking at me. I don't know why Jermaine is asking these questions but I hope he doesn't ask anymore.

"Yes, I love mommy. I love mommy a lot." I looked away while biting my lip. That is something that I did not want to hear only because I don't know how I feel about Raine anymore. After the things that he has done to me I don't know. It's complicated, I've never really sat down and thought about my feelings for him after we broke up and now that I know that he still loves me it's only going to take a matter of days before the memories of us start rushing back to my head.

"Well, I have to go. I love you Maine, be good for daddy. Bye Raine, talk to ya'll later." I hung up on face time and laid flat on my bed. The way that Raine is feeling about me can't be good, but imma just let things run its course. I got out of my bed, put on some grey sweats, and headed downstairs into the kitchen but changed my route when I heard a knock at my front door. I looked out the peephole and quickly opened the door. I hopped on the person and wrapped my legs around their waist.

"I take it as you missed me?" My childhood best friend Cameron asked me. I hopped down and nodded my head. Cameron and his family moved away when we were 15. It was rough on both of us especially since the night before he left we lost our virginities to each other. That night was magical and if I could relive it all over again I would in a heartbeat. When they moved me and Cameron of course couldn't see each other but we still talked on the phone and sent pictures to one another to keep updated on our looks so if we do end up seeing each other again we would know.

"Of course I missed you! It's been years." I looked him up and down and he just looked so fine with the little muscles that he had, to the blonde hair on his head that was cut just right to fit his face, his chiseled jaw, and his beautiful gray eyes. He was like perfection to me, always has been.

"Come on, let's go inside and catch up some more because we haven't really spoken in a good six years." I nodded my head and lead him into the living room while I went and got us some snacks and drinks. When I got back into the living room he was on his phone but hurried up and put it back once he saw me. I lifted my eyebrows up in suspicion, but let the thought fly right out of my head. I sat the snacks on the table in front of us and we started catching up.

"So you have a son now? Is his dad in his life? Or maybe your life?" I raised my eyebrows and smirked. He still wants me... I mean who wouldn't? Not to be cocky or anything but I was fine! Always have been.

"Yeah, he's four. Yes his dad is in his life, but he's not in mine. We went through some things and decided that being together wasn't for us and broke it off. It's better this way." Or so I think. I really need to get a grip on my feelings and control them cause I'm not trying to be some confused bitch about her feelings and be slacking on her money, nah.

"Oh, maybe it was for the better." He smiled at me and I blushed. He always knew what to do to get me all shy and shit.

"What about you? You have a girlfriend? Any kids or maybe babies?" He laughed and shook his head no.

"I do not have any kids... not yet anyways, but I did have a fiance." I frowned a little bit. I did not want to hear that and I don't know why.

"What happened to her?" He got this look on his face, but I couldn't yet describe what it was.

"She was keeping me her little secret and all that other shit. She was after my money and I don't think she really loved me. She's now saying that she is pregnant with my baby because after we broke it off we did still have sex with eachother, but I don't know. I'm on the fence about it because she did fuck one of my best friends." Damn, that girl had some serious balls, but who would act like they loved someone when they didn't? See, this is why that love shit is not for me cause if a nigga tried to break my heart like that I'm straight gouging his eyeballs out of his eye sockets, fry them, and feed them to him. I don't play when it comes to feelings. But then there was Raine, I shook my head.

"Well, at least you knew what you were getting in and tried to call it quits. That special someone will come around sooner or later."

"I know she will." He took my chin and started caressing it and I gasped. Hopefully he isn't talking about me because I'm not ready for all of that. Maybe if my head wasn't in the mindset it is now it would be a whole different story, but who knows? Shit might change.

That's it, when it's released I will posting the link on here and on my page if any of you are interested to finish the rest. Love you!