Dejavu • ㄴㅇㅅㅌ

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JR raised his head, breaking away from his thoughts after hearing his voice.

And there he was just thinking about him.

Infront of him was the only person who can take his breath away in a second. The person who can make his heart run a kilometer in ten seconds, and not die.

"Ren."

"You look like you saw a ghost." Ren mumbled, sitting on the stool infront of the man.

JR was quiet for a short while, before letting out a laugh. He smiled at Ren who was facing him, then turned to watch the celebrating crowd away from them.

Ren just huffed after seeing the guy ignore him.

It's been a whole month since they last met, and since the last time he's dreamed of him.

It has been a long, whole month of confusion and anxiety. A whole month of doubt and unease. And a couple of times of getting scolded by the photographer for always looking glum from his worries.

He never imagined that he can miss someone to the point of wanting to just see their face, and he'd be fine.

And over this whole month, he finally had the courage to approach him, to tell him, and maybe ask him as well.

Ren felt his heart race at his impending rejection, but he didn't care. Not anymore.

This time, all he wanted was to tell the moron he likes him.

No.

"I love you, did you know that?" He whispered, laughing afterwards at how crazy and stupid his question must have been to JR.

He looked up, and saw JR sitting quietly, with his back faced towards him.

He felt the rim of his eyes turn hot and felt his heart clench at the sight. Maybe he was the moron after all.

Who told him to hope for something because of a dream. In the end, it's just what it is, a dream.

"Have you ever felt hope thinking that something might be real, even if it's not?"

Ren raised his head, startled by the question. Although all he can see was JR's broad back, he can see how his shoulders were slightly shaking.

Ren didn't say anything, confused by the question.

"Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe..." JR stopped, unable to continue his words because of the wide grin forming on his face.

He turned away from Ren thinking that he might have just been tired from all the activities, and decided to take a rest.

He didn't want to disturb him, and he didn't have anything to say to him as well, so he stayed quiet.

But when he heard his words, he felt his world stop for a second before moving again. But this time, everything was brighter than ever.

All those questions, the confusion and sadness, everything was swept away by that one question.

JR turned around to look at Ren, only to see the model with his eyes glossed over, looking like he was about to cry.

Panicking, JR reached over to touch the other's cheek and comfort him when he saw Ren pout and glare at him through his red-rimmed eyes.

Pausing, he dropped his hand and just stared at Ren.

They stayed like that for a while before a groan interrupted them from behind.

"For the love of God, Jonghyun! Just ask him out already! What's with all the clichèd moments, we're dying here, you know?" Aron shouted from the other side of the room, where everyone else was.