Renesmee: Shooting Stars (Sequel To Rising Sun) *COMPLETED* WATTY AWARDS 2012

Bad Black Day

Chapter Twenty

Sarah Rose Black

I turned on my loud music to the highest I could on my sound system, which was the newest and loudest available, and stuck the headphones of my iPhone into my ears, too. I didn't want to hear anything, I didn't want to know anything. All I wanted to do is sleep, dream, and wait for tomorrow to come. Then, when tomorrow comes, I would deal with it. Fair enough to me.

I have slept several times with my headphones in my ears but this was the only time I couldn't. It was the only time I thought and concentrated about falling asleep so I couldn't. However, I kept my face straight and closed my eyes slowly. If I wasn't going to sleep then I'd make them think I was. That was my version of the silent treatment. It always got me what I wanted but what I wanted this time was long lost. What I wanted this time was something money couldn't buy. What I wanted was my family's trust. I wanted to be able to trust them. I wanted to be able to feel safe, like I was with my family. But now all I felt was that I was a complete stranger. They were all in on the biggest secret and I was out. I was the outsider. The freak. The quarter vampire, three-quarters human that could move things with her mind. Not a vampire, not a half-vampire, not a werewolf, not even a human.

Unique. Yeah, right.

Rosie, please. Colby plead. Just talk to me.

Out of my head. Now. I ordered, Unless if you want to lie, that would be just so convenient, give me everything one shot.

He stayed silent for a what seemed like a long time. I wiped a tear with my hand and thanked God nobody saw me. I hated this feeling. I needed to get out of this mood, I needed to get out of depression and regret- everything.

It wasn't a lie, he finally spoke, You know everything now, don't you?

"A little bit late, don't you think?!" I yelled, my voice breaking. I balled my hands into fists and took a deep breath. He stayed silent once more.

I had enough of that. I decided to do something I knew for sure I would deeply regret later. I jumped out of my bed and put my running shoes on.

I ran away.

Not really, I just liked the feeling of freedom. Dammit, I shouldn't have listened to Uncle Seth. I should've stayed there.

I scanned my head for any places I might go to before I was discovered; behind their backs- again- I practiced jumping and stuff they had considered dangerous. Et voila, I'm fine! If the music was loud enough, they wouldn't hear the light thud my feet made as it touched the damp grassy ground.

I knew Aunt Alice wouldn't be able to see me before I was long gone, so she wasn't a problem. And Grandpa Edward was out of mind-reading distance. So, from that side, I was safe.

The rest of the wolves went on patrols down at La Push, I didn't need to worry about that either. All I needed to worry about was where to go without any kind of anything. I didn't have any cash, definitely not a car, and not even a cell phone. What would I do now?

God, I'm so stupid.

So, kids, that's what happens when you run away without your parents knowing, make sure you leave them a note. 'Dear Mom and Dad, I ran away from you because you lied to me. I would be back sometime soon, I promise. I took the car and everything else I needed. I would call if I wanted anything. Love, Stupid'.

I laughed humorlessly to myself as I thought it in my head. Sometimes humor came at the wrong moments.

I ended up running aimlessly in the woods of Washington. I didn't want to do anything but relax at that moment. I glanced around me to recognize the place I went to so I could try to get anywhere I knew, even if it was the mall in Port Angeles.