♡ RM - His Rapper Queen (그의 래퍼 여왕) ♡

Ch. 6 - For you only

After Namjoon moved in with me, I was so happy to have his company. It didn't bother me with how busy our schedules were, the only thing that lingered was the feeling of coming home to someone you can return to after a bad day. I was usually the last one to get home because of the new project I was working on.

It never occured to me how exhausted I was slowly becoming. I was coming back at 3 am and going to work again at 7 am. I have always slept around 3-4 hours. It became draining.

Even Namjoon had it like this, he was back home a lot earlier though. He grew worried about my health that was becoming almost life-threatening. It felt like my life was shortening.

It was 3:47 am as I unlocked the door to our apartment. My head was throbbing and my whole body was screaming for some well-deserved rest. I thought I was about to collapse, I've felt my whole body shaking at the remaining strength it had. I took off my shoes as I lied down on the sofa with every muscle inside me aching. I only closed my eyes once which made me drift to sleep immediately.

I don't have any sense of time when Namjoon came towards me with worry written over his face, but all I've felt was him lifting me in his arms as he carried me to bed. After that I drifted to sleep again.

I woke up to my alarm. I hurriedly turned it off to not let it ring any longer. I groaned tiredly.

,, Good morning. " said Namjoon beside me with his raspy voice.

,, Morning. " I rolled to him.

I ignored the responsibility of waking up now because cuddles were more important now.

,, When did you come back? You didn't even make it to bed. " he asked a bit worriedly.

I groaned again at the thought of sleeping only 3 hours: ,, At 4 am almost. "

He sighed as he tightened his grip.

,, You should take a day off. " he said with a worried voice.

,, I can't. I'm working on my personal project.. " I said as I frowned.

He sighed as he got up from the bed.

,, I think they are a bit harsh on you. They shouldn't overload you like that. You're ruining your health. " he said.

I know, yeobo. I'm also exhausted to death but I'm doing this as a surprise for you and boys. I'm so excited once you'll see it.

The surprise was that when they head on a tour, I would come with them, performing my own love Yourself project. I've been producing one song this entire time about people with anxiety. But today is probably the last day of my project. It was about to be finished today.

,, I might come home early today, yeobo. " I said with a tired smile.

He looked at me as he was putting on his shirt. His abs were so visible, I couldn't avert my eyes. Since we both were busy, we never got to THAT, which made me realize how much time we've spent on career than on ourselves. It made me quite sad.

,, Aigoo, you're staring too hard. " Namjoon teased.

I covered my face: ,,  I'll see you naked one way or another. " I said quite boldly as he chuckled.

I miss those times when we were together everyday. It's like we are growing apart from each other. It wasn't my first time thinking that, but I tried casting this feeling aside.

I got up and headed to shower, passing by Namjoon when suddenly he grabbed me around my waist as he lifted me up, my feet having nothing to touch.

,, Let me down, Joonie! What are you doing? " I giggled as he threw me on the bed with a grin spreaded on his face.

He lifted his eyebrow playfully, making me think about one thing only.

,, You're gonna miss work. " I tried to get out of my twisted mind that was telling me to take him right here right now.

He smiled sassily: ,, Someone's thinking about mature stuff. " he said as he leaned towards me and kissed me deeply.

We kept kissing until we both felt like we were on fire as he started tracing his hands around my body.

Unfortunately, his phone rung as he pulled away to pick it up with a sigh of disappointment.He picked it up with an annoyed tone: "Namjoon's speaking." he said as he suddenly stood up at some news. He quickly looked at me with a shock written over his face that was making me worried.

After he declined the phone call, he looked at me with glittering eyes: "Why didn't you tell me?" he started to close the space between us. ,,What?" I raised my eyebrow in a wonder. He quickly scrolled his phone on YouTube. ,,Joonie, I can't know what you mean if you don't tell me." I said with a grin on my face.

Then I heard maybe too familiar text and song rhytm. It was my song that he was playing together with my videoclip. I looked at his reaction, he was looking at it with a proud smile as he kept smiling so widely.

,,Did you compose that?" he asked in the middle, totally astonished.

I nodded in response as he chuckled. The song was about girls' sacrifices, their pain and scars on their souls and bodies. My true motive was to encourage every girl out there struggling with any life problem which is why my song is named: ,,We're stars and we're beautiful."

,,It was published 2 hours ago and it already has 4 million views." he looked up at me.

That must have meant that I didn't need to come to studio today which made me relieved.

Namjoon put the phone away after he finished watching it and then he lifted me in his arms and carried me around our apartment while his smile was wider than before. He sat me down on the sofa as he sat next to me.

,,Care to explain why was this behind my back?" his voice was full of pride which made me smile.

,,Yeobo, it was supposed to be surprise." I giggled.

He kissed me sweetly; ,,This song is going to be our forerunner at our concert even though you'll take part in a few of our songs where you're supposed to be." he smiled.

,,Just like old times." I said with a faint smile, missing boys.

,,We'll be on stage together, that's what matters." he tried to cheer me up.

,,I'll stand there for you only." I kissed him back.