Drunken Kisses

Drunken Kisses: Drunken Incident

"Whatever you decide, I'm right here Jiaqi. I'll support you the way you supported me when i was having a hard time with Dylan."

"Thanks Yue. I mean after what happened with the way my ex cheated on me because of our long distance relationship, I can't imagine being in that kind of relationship again." I explained my hesitation.

She grabbed my hand and gave it a comforting squeeze.

"I understand Jiaqi. Just take your time. You're the only one who gets to decide when you're finally ready to love again. You don't have to rush at all." She said comfortingly.

"Thanks Yue! Now come on. You already wasted  a lot of your date with Dylan with me." I pulled her towards where the boys were playing.

"This is also our girl time. I often see Dylan whenever we're free. But I rarely see you these days." She said to me.

"I know. Next time we're both in Beijing let's have some girl bonding okay?" I held my pinky finger for a promise.

She tangled her pinky finger with mine. "Deal!"

I let her hang out with Dylan then. He was teaching her how to play pool. They really look great together.

"So are you enjoying the night?" Big Xize suddenly asked me. He was holding a glass of scotch, I don't know how many glasses he had but he's a bit drunk.

"I am. I'm glad I came." I smiled really happy that I get to bond with them once more.

"I think we should do this as often as we could. We could also help those two date under the wraps." He said gesturing at Dylan and Yue fooling around on the pool table. She playfully hit him everytime he kisses her at her every attempt to play.

"I know. I feel sorry that they can't be with each other openly, and can't even date always. That kind of relationship takes serious effort. But I'm happy for them." I told him.

"Are we still talking about them?" He asked. Teasing me. I elbowed his arm. He, Dylan and Yue were the only ones who know about my ex. I spilled the beans one night when we were having a late night drink in Dylan's hotel room.

"Can we not talk about that? Aren't we here to have fun?" I begged him.

He nodded. "Come on, let's go downstairs and dance." He grabbed my hand along the way. Dylan and Yue followed. Lil Xize didn't tag along since he was cozying up with one of the girls he had met.

The music was still blasting with EDMs and alternates with hiphop music. We don't worry about Dy or Yue being caught here since it was mostly dark and there were a lot of people around.

We danced to the music. Since I have a slight buzz from the cocktails I drank earlier, I was able to let myself loose this time. Xize and I were just dancing to the rhythm. There was a moment he placed his hands around my waist, and I felt the shot of electricity from it. He was already drunk due to the hard drinks he and the others were drinking before we even came down here.

My body was moving faster than my mind that I ended up lacing my arms around his neck, loving the way it felt. He leaned his forehead against mine while we kept on dancing. It was getting intense, and we're both swept up by the beat of the music. Our ragged breaths were mingling due to our closeness.

I closed my eyes briefly to try to clear out the buzz I was feeling. By the time I opened them once again, I was attacked with the feeling of his lips smashing against my own. The logical thing, the sober Jiaqi will pull away, but I ended up responding to him readily. I moved my lips in sync with him.

I tasted the hint of scotch and smoke as he explored my mouth. Overwhelmed by the onslaught of his kiss, I felt my knees buckle but his arms just tightened around me.

We were trapped on our own bubble when a guy bumped us, clearing away the lingering effects of alcohol on our minds. Our eyes widened at the realization of our predicament. We were looking at each other, shocked evident on our eyes. I pulled away immediately and he placed one of his hands on his nape, his drunken state momentarily forgotten.

"Jiaqi, I'm sorry. I..." I saw the regret in his eyes. He was just so into the moment that he ended up kissing me. Rather than waiting for him to finish his sentence, I turned and ran back upstairs to quickly grab my things.

Yue and Dylan were back on the VIP section snuggling with each other on the couch. They sat up quickly when they saw my state.

"Jiaqi, are you okay?" She asked, wondering why I was in a rush.

"Yue, I'll call you okay? Bye." I hugged both of them quickly and ran back downstairs.

Xize was at the bottom of it. When I reached the last step, I tried to walk past him but he grabbed my arm.

"Jiaqi, can we talk about this for a minute?" He begged me.

"There's nothing to talk about Xize. I knew you regretted it. So let's just forget about it. We're brothers remember?" I pulled my arm from his grasp and ran outside the bar.

I could still hear him calling my name, running after me. I quickly got inside one of the taxis and went home.

Once I was back, I turned off my phone and dive towards my bed. I didn't even bother to change, I was overwhelmed by my emotions that I ended up crying.

This wasn't how the night was supposed to end. I was supposed to enjoy having drinks with them, catching up and fooling around. Then Xize will bring me back home and say goodbye like the brother that he is. We were friends. He needs to be my friend, because I can't let myself think of him as more than that.

I fell asleep still reeling from what happened. I was slightly intoxicated but I was still aware of everything that happened.

When I woke up, I was bombarded with the thoughts that happened last night. A knock sounded from my bedroom door, my manager popped her head in.

"Jiaqi! You weren't answering your phone last night. Shen Yue left me a couple of voice mails asking where you were. I came here as soon as I heard her messages. Are you okay?" She asked.

"Yes Jie. I wasn't feeling well last night that's why I went home ahead of them." I told her.

"Okay, text her. She was really worried. By the way, our flight to Shanghai for your photoshoot is at 5pm. Be ready okay?"

"I will jie. Thank you." I said to her.

Once she closed the door I ended up lying back down. After all that has happened yesterday, one thing has to be made clear.

Wu Xize is my big brother. Those are the words I will keep telling myself. Over and over again. Until I believe it, until my heart agrees with it.

I finally turned on my phone and the message notifications kept on coming. I opened Yue's first.

Jiaqi! Where the hell are you? Xize told me what happened. That idiot!

Jiaqi are you home? Please tell me your home.

Hey! Are you okay? Please reply Jiaqi. I'm here for you.

Then I listened to her voice mail.

"Jiaqi, listen I don't want to push you or anything. But please listen to Xize's explanation okay? I'm here for you. Call me if you need someone to talk okay?  Are you okay? Please just reply with a YES if you're okay."

"Jiaqi I mean it. Call me ANYTIME! EVEN IF I'M SLEEPING!"

Then I read Dylan's text.

Jiaqi, you alright? Don't worry I already smacked Xize's head. Can you please reply on Yue's messages? She's losing it right now.

Then I finally read his text.

Jiaqi, are you home? Where are you? I'M SORRY. PLEASE.

Jiaqi, can we talk, please? Let me explain.

I don't want to explain through text. So can we meet?

Jiaqi, can you at least let me talk to you on the phone?

If you don't answer my text I'm coming to your apartment.

I sighed. What a mess I am in.