My Story: Feelings, Stories, Honesty, and Love

Chapter 1: Intro

Hi, I'm Shiru. Most of you ready probably already know this and already know quite a bit about me. But these are the things that I keep inside and prefer only to tell my closets friends and loved ones. This will finally be a way for me to show how I actually feel, this'll be like a journal. And I guess you can say it'll be my story, it'll have some experiences and a lot of feelings. Confessions and more. I don't expect people to read this and I really don't know if they should. But I'm gonna write it anyway and hope it doesn't go anywhere regrettable. Hopefully I can become a better person by expressing myself and letting these feelings free for people to know. So without further ado...here we go...

My Self Reflection #1: Who am I?

"Who are you?" People will ask. I don't know. I don't know who I am...but I know who I wanna be. I was always told that life isn't fair and that no matter what, I can't change myself. Even if I try, I can't. I'll always be me, and there are a few people who really love that. There are people who think they know who I am. But how can they know who I am, when I don't even know? Some people say I'm this super sweet, creative person who's gonna grow up and change the world. Others say I'm gonna be a drifter, lost and trying to find myself. And there are another group who say that I'll be big and beautiful and amazing. I really don't know. I wanna be myself, not others fantasies of me. But who am I? Am I really as creative and talented as people say? Or am I just...lost, like others say. I don't know, and that's why I'm pondering this. I think it'll take me a lifetime to figure out who I am. I just hope I'm someone reasonable and decent. I hope I'll be successful in the career pathway I take. For now, I'm just a little girl. A little girl learning who she is and what her life will be. So after this thinking, if you ask me, "who are you?", I'm still gonna say I don't know. I'll know someday and when that day comes you can ask me again, and hopefully I'll have a reasonable answer. This was my first self reflection of about who I am. I hope I'm not the only person out there who feels like this, comment if you can relate and maybe share some feelings of your own, goodbye I love you guys 💗