I walk to my class/club and sit down waiting for alexa and the others too arrive but then I sarah comes into the classroom.
I hate that bitch always walking around saying someone has a crush on her but she stinks she smells like mildew all the time and she is fucking 12 feet tall and she huge but I don't body shame you know because im fat im just not rude too others you know I keep it all to myself.
She gives me the stink eye and it takes everything in me not too stand up and slap the blackness off that bitch,that's why her converses lean too the side ,her feet are too damn big for them.
Bgsn (big ,girl,side,note)
Vans ,converse pumas,adidas are not shoes for wide feet unless they come that way.
I learned my lesson when I tried too wear converses thinking they looked cute and trying too be like everyone else.
My shit was leaning like the tower of pizza better yet my shit was more lean than turkey meat at the grocery store.
But that's the thing about being a big girl you can experiment because you don't fit in guide lines,like for example everyone Is wearing black vans and because vans don't come in wide width you can take whatever shoe you want and take it customize it and wear it like a boss so people will copy you and want too wear your style,and then they will look for your guidance for the next style.
You feel me.
But any way she walks too her normal chair and sits ,and I can feel the tension radiating between us and It gets really awkward .
I want too say something.
No don't say anything
Say something show her who is boss
No
Yes
"Sarah,"
Shit I said something
She looks at me and looks back training her eyes on a smudge on the floor.
"im not the type of person to leave stuff alone I pick at and pick at until it can no longer be picked with ,but then I still pick at it,but I don't know what I did wrong too you and I just don't like this tension I know we all have different things to deal with but that doesn't mean that I cant help, I don't know what I did but I will take full responsibility for it, if it will make you happy. "
She looks like she just ate lemon but it sad at the same time.
We both just sit in silence until she finally inhales loudly.
"I am mad at you because...I should be honest, I am not mad at you I am mad at myself,"
She says quietly
"what do you mean like envy-
"that's what I mean you use all these big words and you are pretty you have a nice ass and hips your belly isn't big but you are perfect and-
"sarah you have too understand that I wasn't always like this remember in 6th grade when I was straight up and down a box ,I had too exercise and work to get this and I have been working on it for about 2 years now,that's stuff I had too sacrifice and its very nice that you think that way about me ."
I feel so good about myself do I really look that good if so why doesn't he like me ,and suddenly I feel a big wave of discomfort over me ,maybe he just likes girls who are straight up and down .
I smile at her .
"sarah if you want I can help you ,we are not the same but I don't know .."
"I understand,"she says on the verge of crying.
