I'M NOT superstitious. I'm still not,even though it started on Friday the thirteenth. One reason for that is that I was born on Friday the thirteenth so I can't very well regard that as an unlucky day! Even though horoscopes never seem to say things that come true, that does stop me from reading them next time around and even believing them, especially if they say I'm going to make a lot of money or that someone is going to fall madly in love with me.
We were driving to the airport to pick up my older sister, Vanessa, who's just finished her first year in college. "We" is Mom, Dad, Lowell, and I. Lowell is my older brother; he's seventeen. He's not really that much older, only a year and two months. I used to have the feeling maybe I wasn't planned since you'd wonder how many couples would want to have a third a year after they had a second, especially if they had a boy and a girl already. Mom says no, they just liked kids and figured while they were at it, another might be good idea. "We were just babies," she says, "what did we know?" I've never felt unwanted or anything, but I think when I'm a mother I'll take it a bit money slowly.
The good thing about Lowell and me being so near in age that we're really close, much more so than most brothers and sisters I know. I've always looked up to Vanessa, but four years is a big gap, especially when you're little. If I have a problem or just want to talk to someone about something, I always go Lowell. He's a good listener. He sits there, looking at you with brownish green eyes (he wears glasses), sometimes saying "Umm hmm" or "Yeah I know" but in this very understanding way. Talking to my best friend, Terry, is completely different. She's always gasping, "Oh my God, no! You didn't!" or "How fantastic! I can't believe it!" Once when we were in a coffee shop talking about something, she got up to go to the bathroom and said "Now listen, don't say a word till I get back." As though there was anyone for me to say anything to, since I was there just with her.
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