Puzzle Hearts (ON HOLD)

(1) Puzzle Hearts

GUYS! Okay, so I've written this story a year ago, but I never got to finish it. I'm currently writing it again, but I changed a bit of details in the original story. Hope you enjoy :D

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Chapter 1:

Pathetic. That's what I was.

I placed the cigarette between my lips and breathed in as I stared up at the ceiling, shadows dancing around the room from the sidewalk light and drops of rain outside. Gordon’s hand sneaked around my waist.

He placed an arm over my waist and pulled me closer, breathing in my scent. "You’re awake." The intimate touch made me tense, and he noticed this. “What’s wrong Brielle?”

I sat up and moved away from him. I crushed my half finished cigarette on his drawer. "Where are you going?" He asked. I hooked back my bra and pulled my shirt over my head, and I slipped into my jeans. I took my shoes from the corner where I carelessly threw them earlier. I didn't answer him, and instead, turned my back to him and wore my worn out shoes.

"Brielle?" He sat up, scratching his head. I shook my head, now shoving the shoes to my feet. Damn it, I had to get out of here.

I stood up and took in a deep breath before I turned to him, my face stoic of emotion, just how I always make it look. "Where are you going?"

"I'm leaving." I said nonchalantly, and took my coat from the edge of his bed. I didn't want to look at him, I couldn't. "It’s raining, why not wait til tomorrow?" He has that same hope that I heard in everyone else’s voices in his own, that I would comply and stay with him.

"I’m sorry."

And just like that, I left.

It was the middle of the night, and I jogged away from Gordon's house. It was cold and the rain was pounding on my back, but I didn't stop. Only when I was four blocks away, I stopped.

I wiped the eyeliner that was running down my cheeks as I whispered sorry. He was a nice guy, but I knew he was just going to leave me

When I finally caught my breath, I started to walk back to my house. It was four am by now, and we had school the next day, so I decided to not go to sleep anymore. I couldn’t wait for the weekend. I just wanted to stay indoors and play the violin, which was something no one would expect the Brielle Mason to do.

I rolled my eyes at the thought. I knew what everyone thought of me. I was kind of like the heartbreaker of Creed Valley High. Because of this reputation of mine, every guy tries to make me fall in love with them, so that they could tell their friends that they ‘tamed the beast.’

I felt quite guilty for Gordon though. He was really sweet, but if he was going to fall for someone, it shouldn’t be with someone like me. It should be someone who deserves his love, someone who loves him as much as he loves her.

I stared up at the sky, stopping. I wonder when I will love someone. I mean, I know I can’t push away guys forever. One day someone is going to touch my heart, and I will not be strong enough to walk away.

"Excuse me, are you lost?"

I turned and saw a little boy, no older than eight, in Spongebob pajamas. His incredibly clear blue eyes were peeking through his raven hair, which was plastered all over his forehead.

My lips graced into a genuine smile, something that I hadn’t done in a while, and i knelt down so his neck won't get strained. "You should get back in your house, little boy. You're going to get sick." The boy opened his mouth to tell me something, but whatever it was, I didn't get to hear it.