Bennett Blood

Ch 3 | Move On

"Naomi you can't stay in bed forever . It's been a week . If you don't get your ass up and move on with your life!" Nova yells at me cutting on the lights in my room and opening the drapes that let out blinding sunlight.

"Leave me alone," I roll over on my pillow that is still stained with tears and make up. Then I brush some snotty tissues off of my bed.

"This is disgusting . I've never seen her like this." I hear my best friend Corynn whisper in shock.

"You brought Rynn here ? Was that really necessary?!" I whine at my sister.

"From the looks of it , it was more than necessary. Why didn't you call me sooner?" Corynn shakes her head at the messy sight of me.

"Nay, this is an intervention. You just graduated last weekend . You should be out having the time of your life. Not sitting in your room all day watching sappy romance movies, eating Chinese food, listening to Drake all night , not showering ..." Nova walks towards my dresser and starts throwing old food containers in the trash .

"Yes bitch you stink ." Corynn says blatantly.

"I understand Casey was your everything but that was only high school, you have so much waiting for you. You have to move on from him, maybe not for forever but at least for now. You too cute for this, come on now." Nova softens her voice with sympathy.

"I'll get up tomorrow I promise ." I lie.

"Naomi get yo ass up before I make you!" Corynn threatens me before slapping me on my butt. She has three older brothers and kick boxes in her spare time, so you already know my ass is stinging red from the slap.

"Yeah! What she said!" Nova tries to sound as hard as Corynn.

"Get up and then what ? I don't feel like going anywhere." I've been asleep so long my head feels heavy. So all I want to do is go back to sleep to relieve the pain.

"Don't worry bout that. Just hop in the shower and leave the rest to us." Corynn says.

I slowly pull myself up from my queen sized bed and drag my feet across the floor to my bathroom. I turn the knob and steamy hot water flows from the shower head. Corynn was right ... I do stink. I'm stuck in this deep dark hole of depression. Every time I try to move forward from my current situation, I'm reminded of something from the past and it makes me feel even worst. At the hospital Casey was saying and doing every thing in his power to get me to stay with him. He offered to disown Aliesha and his son for the rest of his life just to keep me by his side. I appreciated his offer to sacrifice so much for us to stay together, but I can't spend the rest of my life with a man who neglects his own child; his first born at that. I was that first born neglected child and I would never put another person through that . Now I'm stuck at a stand still ... I voluntarily left the love of my life . We were together four years and I gave up on us . And despite the 72 missed phone calls , 14 voicemails, and 158 unread text messages he has sent me begging for forgiveness I know I'm never going back . I don't know where I am going to college. My father isn't man enough to stand up to his wife and be the father he should be to me. My life just feels like one big train wreck, and I wish somebody would tie me to the tracks so I could die already ...

"Want me to do your hair?" Nova asks when I step out the shower.

I nod my head softly . My sister is beyond lazy. I'm usually the one left catering to her, so the fact she is offering to do anything for me shows how sorry she must feel for me.

She gently spreads creamy moisturizer through my wet curly hair. She uses cool gel to smooth over my edges and brushes my hair into a sleek bun.

"Naomi, I'm worried about you. I had to call Corynn , I didn't know what else to do. You have to move forward girl. You're too strong to let a man define your happiness. " Nova preaches to me .