Rainfall (~fillie~ story)

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Finn's POV
I got up and followed behind him outside, it was a bit nippy so I pushed my hands in my pocket and stood on the porch as he closed the door I looked out to the white snow, I looked over to Asher who didn't seem bother by the cold at all
"Cold day. Isn't it?" He spoke and I just chuckled awkwardly
"How you been Finn?" I pulled my hand out and scratched my head
"Uhhh, I've seen better days" I wish he would hurry up with this conversation
"Mmm that's good. Thought it would be different" I tilted my head to him trying to see where he's trying to get at  
"What do you mean" he looked out towards the snow watching as it overlapped
"It's it clear? You have a kid at the age of 17, come on Finn that's truly sad, what has Journey ever done for you in a good way?" every time he mentioned Journey only god knows how bad I wanted to strangle him. I picked my head back up and stepped closer to him as we both looked at each other intensely trying to see who could bring down other persons tuff ness down first
"Let me tell you something. I did agree to respect you but that also means that you agree to respect me. I understand what I did and except what I did so when we have a conversation it doesn't always have included things that you think are bad in my life" he giggled slightly pulling his eyes from mine
"Why are you even here? Did mom and dad cut you off because of your little slip up? Why did you come here Finn Wolfhard?" I looked at him confused as if he was really joking
"Why the fuck did you even pull me outside" he looked down smiling shaking his head
"Because my girlfriend seems like she's having the time of her life playing with your daughter" I scoffed at him
"Ok and your point is?" He looked down at the floor
"My point is your trying to fuck my life up again Finn but not this time. You can't have millie" I rolled my eyes at him as if he's gonna do shit
"Your acting dumb. Like this childish behavior is stupid" I said getting heated off this situation
"I knew things about you finn and I kept my mouth shut but now that your here we're gonna get even" I grew upset with hate and anger
"That's what you crave for me. Right? You crave this little place in your head where everything goes bad for me. You hate me. You want to cause my life great destruction. Anything else to add to the depth list?"  He only licked his lips and opened the door to the house
"A lot more Finn. A lot more". I wanted to go home at this point, everyone left except Caleb, Asher, Maddie and me, Asher's conversation continued to play in my head like a broken record, I hate him so much now, yeah I did feel extremely bad for years but now I'm just like Damn he always hated me and on top of that I  don't care if he talks about me but don't talk about my daughter, nobody ever talks about my fucking kid
"Yo Finn you good. You look like your about to get up and beat the shit beat of them" I shake my attention away from Asher and Millie who were in the backyard kissing and laughing
"Oh yeah just a few things on my mind ya know" I look down at Journey who was sleep on my chest, her head lazily placed closer to my neck
"I wanted to ask. How is have a kid at such a young age?" Maddie says, I rubbed her back comforting her then  placing her little hand in mine
"It's hard. You always have this little judge mental mind where it makes you think about all the things you have or haven't done yet as a teen but when you push that aside it's pretty cool" I said, I looked over to Maddie and she smiled softly, she turns her head towards the couple
"I get worried about Mills and Asher sometimes" I hear Caleb say shifting on the couch
"Don't get me wrong I love them with each other but I noticed things. I noticed they never argue not that, that's a bad thing but still not a good thing, Their always together. Asher's over the top protective. You know one time they almost ran off together. If it wasn't for sadie and Maddie, Millie would be dead by now" I raised my eyebrows taking in this new information
"How long they been together" he looked at me
"A while 8 months but still not long enough to go and lose their minds together" I wasn't surprised that they would do that
"Asher's been like that for a while. He moves pretty fast in relationships" I sighed thinking it was time to go now cause all this taking about him is annoying
"Ok, I'm about to leave" I sat up and held Journey to my chest, slipping on my coat and then carefully putting on her coat then standing up carrying her towards were they sat, I didn't even look at Asher
"Just wanted to say I'm leaving" Millie smiled at me and stood up and hugged me, her face slightly brushed mine and it was warm and soft, I placed a hand on her back and pressed lightly
"Call if you need anything" she let go and looked at Journey and kissed her head, I could smell a sweet sent like sparkling lustrous soft sweet berries with a delicate musky tones that compliments the way she looks perfectly, she was practically addictive and irresistible
"Night Finn". After I changed Journey's clothes and put her in the bed I decided to order Chinese food, but when it got here I couldn't eat I just sat there, letting the hot food smell fill the room, I couldn't stop thinking about Asher, yeah he did "forgive" me but you could tell he wanted me no where near anyone especially Millie, on an honest note that day when I did what I did with his girlfriend I did it out of anger. When I really think about it, that's why I did it, I was always so jealous of Asher and how good looking he was and how many girls he could get in a small matter of time, he always got the best looking girls the ones with the best personality, Lily that was her name, she was one beautiful girl, I know she was 14 at the time but god she was pretty but the both of us were so young, sometimes I feel bad for Journey cause she looks like me but then again she does have Lily's personality so I guess it's good. I sighed softly as I realize I wasted food, I got up and just put it in the fridge then hearing some small foot steps
"Journey go back to bed" I said walking back in the living room to work on the unpacked boxes
"But dada I wanna stay with you" her voice was sleep and groggy
"No baby, just go lay down" I see her head pop out from the corner, I smiled at her messy hair as she comes to me and climbed in my lap, I messed with it as she breaths softly, I look to my right to see a blanket that I throw over us
"I had fun today, I really like millie and Sadie, can we see them tomorrow" I chuckled softly wishing it was that easy
"Ummm no, we gotta go to the store tomorrow" she reached up her hand and put it on my face, she has this weird thing to do that, I don't know why but she's been doing it sense she was a small baby
"Aww ok" I just put a light smile on my face liking that she likes Millie.