Suite 114 • P.jm • [[ON HIATUS]]

Chapter 17

Thursday morning, the day after my eventful little meeting with Taehyung, turns out to be the best morning I've had in awhile. Sometime around one a.m. Tae sent a short, but amazing message that set the stage for my day.

My heart grasps back onto the hope that it had lost at exactly six a.m. when my alarm goes off.

New message from V

V: We talked :)

Two words.

And probably the most beautiful emoji smiley face I've ever seen...

Are what give me the energy I need and the mental strength to get my day started with a lot more enthusiasm than usual.

As I get ready for work I think how it almost feels silly now to regain hope, just a few days before they leave for their North American tour. No matter what happens, he'll be leaving. Gone for months. And if things aren't even somewhat resolved by then, I fear that his feelings for me will slowly fade away. He'll get used to the way things were before and forget me completely. And if it weren't for the phone call between him and Tae yesterday, I would think that he has already. All while I'm stuck here in Korea sulking, watching videos of him on stage from across the globe, my heart full to the brim with regret.

Waiting for him to return.

But, right in this moment, I'm done with doubt. I'm tired of thinking negative thoughts that ultimately do nothing but bury me deeper into the dirt. As painful as it is to think, I know there is a high possibility that things may never work out, but I still have to go on with life. So instead of overthinking, like i always do, I should try to stay as positive as I possibly can. It sure sounds better than moping all day, achieving absolutely nothing.

Also, knowing that there's someone on my side vouching for me is something that I can cling to for now. Tae seems trustworthy and genuinely concerned about my well being and happiness. I don't know how to ever repay him, whether things work out in the end or not.

Once my hair is re-straightened and I'm dressed for the surprisingly cool weather, I saunter into the living room and find my sister relaxing on the couch eating a yogurt parfait so fast that she doesn't notice me enter.

"Don't choke." I utter, startling her.

She drops her spoon and grunts as she leans down to pick it up. "Shit. You almost made me choke." her eyes glare at me playfully.

"Sorry." I say, raising my shoulders out of remorse.

She chuckles and points her spoon towards the kitchen. "There's one in the fridge for you too."

My face lights up and I dash to grab the glass jar, filled with granola and berries, from the fridge. As I'm grabbing a spoon from the drawer Vee yells from the living room.

"I added extra strawberries too!"

I lick my lips in anticipation before digging into my breakfast delicacy. It's a relief not having to make myself food before work. Now I can relax a little before leaving.

My sister's jar now sits abandoned on the coffee table, her legs folded underneath her as she watches me eat.

"You seem happy today." She points out, wrinkling her brows at me.

"I am!" I pop a strawberry halve into my mouth and smile down at my food that's quickly disappearing.

"Yes, but.... abnormally happy." She adds.

I shrug and turn on the TV, leaving it on whatever channel it was last on, which turns out to be a drama network. Overly dramatic music plays as two characters come close to kissing. I giggle and prop my feet up on the coffee table. It's been so long since I've sat down and watched anything on cable TV. I peer over at my sister, feeling her eyes on me. Her dumbfounded expression makes me stop chewing.