Secrets and Feelings. (boyxboy) CONTINUING

Chapter 5: Secrets and Teases.

TYLER POV

     I'm not exactly sure if i was seeing everything correctly. It wasn't processing through my head correctly, but all i know is from what i saw made my heart hurt so much.
    Yes i've seen people in real life who had the same problem, even in shows, but it never made me feel this hurt before. This was different. Because it was him, i couldn't help but stare.
    A few seconds past and i didn't want him to know what i was exactly looking at so i blurted out something that made him embarrassed.
     "You have bright blue and pink boxers on." I looked at him and saw his cheeks turn pink, just like the color of his boxers. He tried to move away to stand up but i pulled him back and pulled the end of his boxers back then let go to make a snapping sound against his skin.
       He yelped while i started laughing. "Don't be embarrassed, it's just a color." I got up and put a hand out for him. He looked up at me while hesitantly deciding whether to take my hand or not, which he did in the end anyway.
       I pulled him up without any trouble. He was as light as a feather, he was like a small princess. His hand fitting perfectly with mine- no. What am i thinking? I'm gonna start thinking this all over again.
       I looked over at him and saw him staring back at me. He quickly turned his face the other way and i couldn't help but let out a small laugh. He was such a shy person, but can sometimes be out going, i just know it.
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       We ended up packing things up after another hour of tutoring. It consisted of me looking dumb for not knowing some questions and me whining while Alex rolled his eyes and smacking my hand every time i tried to reach for the paper, trying to put it away in my backpack so we can leave already.
       I didn't want the day to be over already.
"We should go to the mall for abit." I looked over at Alex to see him looking back at me with his head tilted abit. "The mall?" he responded back.
       "Yeah, the mall. You know that big place with different sto-" "Yes i know what a mall is smartass!" Alex lightly punched my arm while i laughed.
        "Okay okay, so let's go!" I started walking to my car, Alex following me from behind like a small puppy.
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   ALEX POV

         I entered the car and Tyler starting driving. After the whole 'boxer' incident, i couldn't keep eye contact with him. First he tickled me, now my boxers? Does he get close with people that quick? I don't have friends in person—just online— so all of this is so new. But with him, it feels like i've known him for along time.
         Does he want to be close? Does he actually want to be friends? I smile started to appear on my face till voices at the back of my head started talking.
       "Friends? He's just doing this to get better grades. Why would he want to be friends with you?"
"Did you not see the way he was touching you? He's desperate and needs someone. He wants you for your body-"
          I reached over for the radio and turned it on. Tyler said he wouldn't mind so i did what he said. Music would clear my head, i just needed something to clear my head. At the corner of my eye, i'm pretty sure i saw Tyler smiling, or smirking.
          I watched the roads as we passed them and sang abit, each words coming out my mouth smoothly. The beats filling my head and kicking each word out of my mind, filling it with words that calm me down. Tyler nudged me abit with his elbow and started singing also.
          I couldn't keep my eyes off his lips, they moved so swiftly. How he would smile when the words stopped and only the instruments played. I felt like i was staring for too long so i had to look somewhere else. He's not like how people say he is. They just don't know him well enough.
          He does have a look that scares people sometimes but once you get passed that, he's funny, sweet, kind, energetic, a tease, outgoing, etc.

        Song after songs came on and we finally made it to the mall, entering inside and feeling the cold air touch my skin and the smell of different stores and foods passed my nose. I've only been to the mall about 2-3 times. I don't have much money but one day my mom offered to take me as a gift for getting all A's. Honestly that was the best day ever.
I love fashion, there's so many stores here that just make me melt (not sexually, yet) Since i don't have much money, i go to the thrift stores and buy different clothes. I learned how to stitch and sew and add different designs and i have a collection of so many good things. I try them on here and there and it brings a big smile to my face. I've always wanted to do some sort of art design but not exactly which one yet.
There's just one big problem i have when it comes to fashion...never will i ever tell anyone, only Yuu and Jae know. At times, i dress in girl clothes. Just the way it looks and how some clothes move nicely when you move your hips, like dresses. I always catch myself staring at old dresses at the thrift store. The cashier knows me fairly well and thinks all the girl clothes are for my mother, always saying "Sewing more for your mom? You're such a lovely child." Pinching my cheeks and making me feel loved, like if she was my grandma.
         My mom doesn't even know about this, she doesn't know much of the things about me. Its not her fault though. I just keep a lot of secrets.
        I'm not comfortable telling these things to people. I just know ima be judged. I really only trust Jae and Yuu, they always support me and understand, and i just wish they were here at the mall with me. Helping me pick out different outfits.
        I was thinking too much and didn't notice that's Tyler led me to a store already. He was looking through a rack of shirts. I stared at him and went on my tippy toes to look around the store. I saw a good isle i would love to look around. If i can just quickly go and look without Tyler noticing, everything would be fine.