Dear • Diary,

13(2)

Yeonji's P.O.V

About 5 mins early,I was at the meeting place already. The place was at the bridge and there was a river underneath.

I checked the time.To be honest, I don't know what I'll do when I meet him.

What should I ask? Would I go straight forward? What if I stutter? What if he doesn't come? What do I do now?

I will wait.

Will wait for him to come and believe in him.

Speaking of which, I saw a man going to my direction and there stood, Jaehyun with a serious look.

I gulped.Nervously waiting ,he went closer to me.Right in front of me but there was a distance.

The atmosphere was not good yet it was awkwardly stuffy? It was like he also has something to say.

Because my time is running out,I decided to make the first move.
"Hey"I said nervously.He didn't answer but I still continued.

"So ..I'll just go straight to the point. I'm leaving this world.And this is my farewell to you." I said. He didn't have any reaction.

"Thats it?"He asked. I actually wanted to say some more. But it would make the atmosphere really really awkward.

But ...this is my last time that will see him. I should do what I must do.

"Jaehyun..."I called out his name -still no reaction.
"I think I like you.." I said.Finally,he smiled.

Finally the atmosphere became lighter.

"I have to tell you something."He said and suddenly became serious again. I nodded.
"Listen,I have something to tell you.But.."

But ?

"But this is farewell to you, isn't it?" He said. "Actually I wanted to tell you this a long long time ago but when I had the courage to tell you suddenly you were gone."He continued.

What does he want to tell me?

"To be honest with you Jaehyun, I don't really know what happened to me. The thought of doing suicide was always in my options. And as my farewell..."I paused. I climbed the bridge.

"Yeonji.Don't please ,don't do it. I still have something to say to you." Jaehyun said trying to pull me down.

"Say it before I leave."I said,crying.
"Why? Why would you choose to commit suicide?" He said tears swelling in his eyes.

"Well let me ask you ,whats the point of living when nobody notices me, nobody talks to me, or even knows I live? Whats the point Jaehyun!?"I asked hot tears flowing.

"Thats the point, Yeonji. Thats the point."He said and he held my hand.

"You're not living anymore."He said crying. My grip became loose and I fell but Jaehyun caught me.

"What, what do you mean not living anymore?" I asked stuttering every word.

"You died. You died on the day I was supposed to confess.You were found on the water.News said you committed suicide here. "He said.
I'm not living anymore? So my life was just ...nothing? So the whole time I was a ghost loitering around?

Which explains why they don't notice me.I hugged my knees and wept.

"I'm sorry. I should've told you sooner but you wouldn't talk to me." He said.

"I'm sorry I thought you wanted me to go away from you."I cried .
"Why must it be me? Why?"I cried louder.

"No...no!!! Yeonji!!" He screamed and wailed. I was slowly turning to butterflies.I hugged Jaehyun the last time.

"I don't want to go.Jaehyun save me!" I said weeping, hugging him as if my life depended on it (it is tho)
"I don't want you to go.Yeonji I love you .I love you since we were kids up until now.I was happy to see you one last time."He said trying not to waste every minute.

And I was finally gone and with my last breath.

"I love you "I said to Jaehyun.

Dear diary,

-THE END

[Hotarubi no mori e / the forest of fireflies feels]


(This is what happened but the other way around ^)