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Pain

Eddie hadn't moved from the wall, he didn't want to, he knew he couldn't stop Richie. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore, until tears were soaking his shirt. He felt ashamed of himself,  it was his fault Richie ran off. He felt awful, he couldn't breathe he felt so bad. Eddie took pumps of his inhaler, that still had the taste of Richie's mouth on it, Eddie somewhat smiled, but remembered what he did. He took more pumps, hoping he would be able to breathe, but his anxiety was making it worse. Richie left Eddie's hoodie on the floor, and Eddie pulled the grey hoodie closer to his heart. He sobbed even more, as it smelled like Richie. He cried into the hoodie, smelling it, trying to remember what it felt like to have Richie in his arms. Even though Richie was gone for 5 minutes, it felt like forever. He held the hoodie close to his heart, he was shaking. The losers looked over to him, dissapointed in him, but they were going to get Richie in about an hour, without Eddie. Eddie is the last person Richie wants to see right now. Eddie was rocking himself, hugging the hoodie, whispering, "I'm sorry" Eddie cried himself to sleep, with his knees curled up to his chest, holding Richie's sweatshirt.

Richie saw his moms broken-up van pull into Mikes driveway. He took a deep breath, as another tear fell down his cheek. He opened the door, and looked back at the basement door, hoping to see Eddie one last time, but he wasn't there. He grabbed his crutches and went out the door. He opened the passenger door to his moms car, and Maggie immediately ripped Richie's crutches out from his arms and threw them in the back seat. Richie pulled himself into the passenger seat. Richie is really malnourished yes, but he doesn't look extremely malnourished, he just looks like a skinny teenager. He sat in the seat, and looked to Mike's house, and started crying more, but wiped them away, to make himself seem stronger than he is. He didn't want to seem vulnerable to Maggie. Maggie was obviously wasted, and Richie immediately regretted doing this, but he couldn't go back to Eddie. He missed Eddie, but he held it in, he didn't want to cry, he didn't want to seem weak. He wanted Eddie to hold him and tell him everything's ok, but he was on his own now. He rested his head on the glass, and waited to go back to his hell hole of a house.

As Maggie pulled into the driveway, Richie saw his house again. He felt his heart sink, and Maggie got out of the car and started walking to the house, leaving Richie alone in the car. Maggie was walking slumply though, obviously drunk. Richie opened the door, and hopped out on one foot, and tried to grab his crutches from the backseat. His fluffy curls in his face. He was able to grab the crutches, and went to the front door. The second he opened the door, he got a gust of wind that smelled like home, and alcohol, and nostalgia. He walked in slowly, and saw the place where he was beaten up by his own father with rugs placed everywhere. The rugs were covering up the blood stains in the carpet from when Richie was hit and thrown. One of the rugs had a blood stain coming out from under it. Richie started sobbing, but it was quiet. Maggie was already sitting in the same spot she was when Richie came out, taking shots of vodka. Richie immediately regretted coming here, wishing Eddie was here to help him. He choked out, "Im going to go rest for a little bit." he didn't know what to say, he didn't want to be down there. Maggie rolled her eyes, "Alright. Be down soon." Richie nodded and crutched up to his room, and pulled himself up the stairs, sobbing. He went into his room, the same as before, he sat on his bed, and cried into his hands. He looked around his room, feeling the sense of his childhood, feeling the sense of home. The blue comforter was still as ruffly as before, and the feeling was still the same. He started thinking of memories he had in his room, one of them with Eddie. They were 10, and Eddie came over for a play date, they went up to Richie's room, and played with his toy cars. Richie was abused even when he was 10, and when Richie and Eddie were playing cars, Richie started crying. Eddie asked what's wrong, and Richie told him everything. Eddie gave Richie a tight hug, and that's when they knew they were so madly in love with eachother. Ever since then, Eddie has been there to help him. If it wasn't for Eddie, Richie would be dead by now.