Feelings (random af)

Thoughts.

This thing here, Yes this book is literally random. If you want to know how I feel or what's going on in my crazy life this is the place to be.

Why is life so tough?
Why do I never feel good enough?
I ask myself these questions before sleep
and tell them to stop it,
yet they keep bugging me.

Sometimes I wonder 
if I should just ponder
to strike a match ablaze
and let it consume my brain

cause all my life is insane
and I am suffocating in my pain,
but I pull through
and another load consumes.

I try to pull out,
I try to get free,
But it keeps grabbing me,

This is safe
come with me,
I am here to save you
from all this hatred,
now do see
that I'm not fake
I am not a mistake.

I lie awake in sweat
afraid it hasn't come yet,
they say I'm not sane
but their the ones insane,

I don't do this cause I feel okay
I do his cause I lie awake,
afraid when I must rest
with my sweat,
and never awake.