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Hey Anxiety. You've visited often lately. You like to show up uninvited. Not anymore. I thank you for that. Somethings have changed. You like to show up when you are never welcomed. You make me think. And think. And think. About every single thing. People. Sound. Noise. Touch. It's pretty cool to live in detail but it's so hard to live with detail. I see when people walk and I compare. So many people. So many voices. So many conversations. Thoughts. Minds like my own. If only they were thinking what I have thought. So many beats. Heat beats. Badump badump badump. Together like whimsical. We are in a theater and everyone is acting. I'm the lead role in my tony award winning broadway show. And so is he to his own. And she to hers. We ourselves are the only thing that mattered. Beyond the grapevine. Beyond growth of a civilization. What am I saying. You're everywhere. My My My My You make me cry. Chaotic rampage is in my head. Reminds me of my choir instructor thrashing past chairs of our choir room to get to a misbehaving kid in the back whilst innocent kids flew right and left. As if he were Moses parting the Red Sea. And you aren't alone.
Knock. Knock. Your relatives are here. Depression. Depression. Depression. He's a keeper. He likes to just watch and be entertained. But Oh don't forget Suicidal. Yet he has forgotten this throne he sits in the back row of this chapel set for a wedding wearing only black. Heathers are laughing in the corridors. Waiting for his time to shine. Back to depression we go. Reoccurring you are. What a devilish egg on Easter. You are eaten up instantly then you are whipped up again. Who's eating you. Who's whipping you life. Whipped like the poor abused animals caused life full of stress. Oof. There you are. I didn't forget about you. Stress is the wax paper put down on the cookie sheet so they don't stick. It's the bearer between what natural sti.... nvm. Forget it. I don't make sense. Ahh oh here you decide to join us Regret. You care to join this mad hatter tea party. You show up fashionably late and leave horrifically past on time. Spoiling your stay. What am I to do with you. You back track the clock every struck 12. I'm sorry. I'm dumb.

Hello again. How's it been. You've decided to stop by. I didn't let you in. You walked in. Alone this time. Thank god. I rather have just you than them. Oop. Nvm. Who's this? Annoyance. Oh boy you are high to the max. You are the underlying visitor.

Howdy partner. Here we go again. Yeeha. Ride your way into my life. Destroy my smile and tear the tear from my eye. Just like the word you spread your differences. Great thank you.

Hey good morning you're lame. I know I am. Truth be told I've always was. Lame I is. Lame I am. To the man who stares at me in a crowd. I am lame. I drop my nasty chili cheese fries down my shirt. It stains. Just like the thoughts and faces I receive from you. It's here. Still here. Waiting to be bleached out just like your tidy whites. Bared underneath the tools and whips you remain. Good night.

Hey. There you are again. Welcome back. I sincerely missed you. Isn't this nice. You and I reunited. Here's your daily water works once again. Haven't paid you bill so it's been backed up. Raw old painful tears bursting out. Didn't hurt me this time. I was just frustrated. Frustrated at the fact that they won't understand. That I won't understand. We live in two different worlds. What matters is different. A good day down to something raw. I don't know. I guess I'm wrong. Clean these dishes so that they shine. Oh my. Why don't you look fine. Maybe I am brainwashed. But i don't use the words that they do. Is it equal? Or is it dish wash?