Save You Tonight

Chapter 2 ~

"With my hands on your waste while we dance in the moonlight, I wish it was me that you call later on cause you wanna say goodnight." One Direction blared in my ear telling me it was another morning of my terrible life. I wish I died in my sleep last night. I wish death upon myself all the time, I just seriously wish though that I could kill myself, but I would be throwing a lot away. If I could just get Dylan in rehab I think he would change back to the way he used to be. The happy person who loved his family, that guy that I used to know. I got up and quickly put on a pair of skinny jeans. I put on a T-shirt and a jumper. I ran into my bathroom. I opened the cupboard and grabbed my toothbrush. I brushed my teeth and put my toothbrush. Putting some water in my mouth to clean out the extra toothpaste on my teeth. I spit out the water and brushed my hair. I decided to let it down, just because I didn't want fix it. There was nobody I had to impress. I walked downstairs grabbing an apple and my backpack. I managed to get out the door without Dylan yelling at me for no reason. I made sure my jumper sleeves were down all of the way. I didn't want anybody to see my cuts. I walked to my school, which was only a couple of blocks away. I managed to get to school before the bell rung today. Way to go Avery.

I walked to my section of lockers and opened up my locker. "Hello Avery." Mandy said with a warming smile. "Hey Mandy." I smiled back. Bring on the fake smiles. "How's it going?" She asked. "Nothing new really. My house is so boring." I replied pulling out some books. I closed my locker. "So why do you never invite me over?" Mandy asked. I looked at the ground, I hate lying to Mandy. She had been my best friend since 7th grade. "We have been super busy." I lied. I didn't want to lie to her yet lieing was the only way I could hide my feelings from everybody. I didn't like hiding my feelings but I figured since I am so good at it, what's the use in showing people.

"What class do you have right now?" Mandy asked. "Physics. What about you?" I asked. "I have History." Mandy sighed. "Well, atleast we have lunch together right?" I said pointing to lunch on her schedule. "Yeah, I just wish we had the same classes." Mandy sighed again. "Yeah." I shrugged. "Well I have to go to class now. See you at lunch!" Mandy said turning to go into history class. "Bye Manders!" I yelled back. Now I can officially stop trying to fake the happiness. I walked to my physics class and sat down beside a girl name Tara. "Hey Avery!" Tara squealed. "Hi Tara." I said trying to avoid her extreme happiness. The teacher walked into class. "Hello class!" She squealed. "I am Ms.Tuso." She said writing on the board. Ugh, another one of those teachers who is always trying to be happy and pretend that they are so into educating. I hate teachers like this. Looks like physics is going to be a super boring and slow class.

I watched the clock on the wall and the minutes went by extremely slow. The bell finally rung and I got up making an attempt to make a run for it out of this classroom. I managed to get to the front of the class room and one of the annoying popular girls in my class tripped me and I fell with all of my books flying out of my hand. "Oh, let me help you with that." Ms. Tuso said bending down to help me. She handed me the books and when I reached out my sleeve came up a little bit revealing a coupled of the scars I had on my arm. "Oh my gosh." She said grabbing my arm and pushing my sleeve up. I looked at her and knew I was in trouble. "Have you been doing this to yourself?" She asked letting go of my arm. "Y-yes." I stuttered. "Why?" She asked again. Tears threatened to spill out of my eyes. I held them back the best I could. "Why are you hurting yourself?" She asked again. "It isn't that big of a deal." I managed to let that slip out without letting a tear come down my cheek. "Yes it is a big deal! You're harming yourself. Is there an issue at home?" Her greyish- blue eyes looked worried. She doesn't know me that well but she looked incredibly terrified for me. "No. No I am fine." I took a huge gulp trying to swallow the lump in my throat. "No, I don't think you are fine. You don't just get these type of scars from a fall you had. I know this isn't a big deal to you but seriously, does your mother know you do this?" She looked straight through me, it felt like she was staring straight into my soul. I hated it. My mother, I finally let the tears go, I hated thinking about my parents. "My mother doesn't know about this because she isn't alive." I spoke quietly, tears streaming down my face.

Ms. Tuso looked at me, her eyes full of sympathy. "I'm so sorry, Avery." She whispered. "It's fine. I am living with it. It's no big deal, it was a while ago." I spoke now a little bit angry, I just wanted to go home. I grabbed my books out of Ms. Tuso's arms and I stormed out of the room.

I finally finished all of my classes and they seemed to go by as slow as possible. I just wanted school to be over. I walked to lunch with Mandy. "Anything fun happen today?" She asked me. "No, just the usual, boring classes that take forever." I smiled. Mandy smiled back, atleast I have her. I was still a little bit worried about what Ms.Tuso was going to about the whole cutting thing. I was scared too. I didn't want anyone in school to find out about it. Not even Mandy, she would go crazy with worry.

We walked around the corner and saw a huge crowd of people surrounded around one little section of lockers. Mandy and I walked over to see what everything was about. I looked straight at my locker and there were huge black letters on it. Tears filled my eyes for the second time today.

THIS EMO CUTS HERSELF! x_x

Everyone turned around and saw me standing there, with tears going down my eyes. I ran back around the corner and into the bathroom locking the door behind me. I wanted to die so bad, my life was terrible and it would be way better if I was with mom and dad again. I heard Mandy pouding on the door. "Avery! Open the door!" She screamed. I walked over to the door and unlocked it, pulling Mandy inside, locking it once more. "What the hell is going on Avery?" She whispered, her green eyes had tears in them. I quickly took off my jumper and showed Mandy the scars and some of the bruises including the big one that Dylan had left on my rib cage when he kicked me. "Dylan?" She choked. I looked at my arms. "Mandy. I didn't want to tell you becau-" Mandy interrupted me, "Because why Avery?!? Because You just think it isn't right to tell someone that you are being abused, I'm am your best friend Avery! I have told you everything and this secret should have been told, we could have made it stop way before it got this bad." Mandy yelled tears now streaming down her face. She has a right to be mad at me, I am stupid, and I know that. "Avery I was going to tell you, I just wasn't ready yet!" I yelled back. "Why weren't you ready Avery? Tell me that." Mandy shouted. "I don't know." I whispered. "Exactly." and with that Mandy stormed out of the room, slamming the door behind her.

I realized that it was my fault that I had lost my best friend andI knew right there that I had nothing to live for anymore.