I don't know what means love. I don't know what means affection. I know what means pain. I know what means sadness. Till I'm eight, people shout at me. There tell me I am a monster. That I shouldn't be born. Even if I saved the country from Madara. There says I'm a demon. That I killed their family. Now, I'm nineteen. I think I am a monster. I think that I am a demon. I wonder why I'm born. Before the war, Kurama helped me get better. He chose words who makes we get better. But now, I stoped listening to him. Yet three month ago, he was still trying to talk but it was useless.
- Naruto ?
I raised my head and looked at Sakura. Today was a new day. We were all together, team seven, with Kakashi sensei. We were having good time and lying on the floor. I didn't even noticed that Sakura was talking.
- Hum ?
- Are you okay ?
I blinked at her. She was so smart, so beautiful. I couldn't make here sad because of my problems. Anyway, I was already broken inside. Sorry Sakura-Chan.
- Yeh. Why ?
- Because you seam worried.
I bit me lower lip, promising myself I will be more careful. They mustn't know my secret. Otherwise, I will need to left the village.
I turned my head right and saw Sasuke watching me, frowning his eyebrows. I sight, wondering if he already knew.
I got on my feet and looked at my team with a big fake smile.
- You know what ? I will go to train by myself. I want to be powerful enough to be able to be Hokage !
Obviously, it was faulse. I no longer wanted to protect the village. I wanted to be myself... I said goodbye and started walking upon my house.
< Kit. Your hurting yourself. Stop lying. There will never turn back from you. You know it. >
I just wanted Kurama to shut up. I was not strong enough to tell them. I don't want them to see the real me. It must be hidden. And it's only appears at night, when I cry in bed, alone. I sight and open the door of my house. But I turned and saw Sasuke watching me. He was hidden behind trees and I thought that he wasn't a so good ninja. Ninjas must hide there presence. And slowly, an idea come upon my mind.
I jumped on a branch and started running upon the trees, hearing the raven boy chasing me. I hid in the leaves and wiped off my chakra. I saw him, amused, confused by the fact that I disappeared.
<Your not being very nice to him, kit. He's only trying to help.>
But I didn't listened. I didn't care of what Kurama was thinking. After all, he was a monster. Like me...
After a couple of minutes, Sasuke finally left and I headed back to my house. But I passed near a groupe of adults who was looking meanly at me.
- MONSTER ! DID YOU FORGOT THE GOOD MANERS ?!
<Grrrrrr>
- No sir.
And I knelt and kissed his hand. The others were laughing at me, thinking it was funny.
- Do you want me to tell you something ?
- Please do so sir.
<Stop kit ! There are abusing of you ! Go and tell to someone ! Kit ! >
- You are a filthy creature. You do not deserve to live. You must die. You are a cursed beast. You don't deserve to live.
- If you say so, sir.
The man looked at me and then stepped back to talk with the other. He then threw me a awful look and :
- You know what, monster ? What if you came to my house ?
<It's a trap ! Do not say yes kit. You mustn't ! It is for your own good , kit.>
- Yes sir.
I knew what he wanted to do. I knew his real intention. I was stupid. After all, I was nineteen. But if was broken inside. I couldn't say no. There were to strong for him.
The man took me by the arm, mimic someone who was vomiting and we started walking, side by side.
- Naruto!
