Faded girl

No emotions

         WARNING ⚠️ if you have trouble dealing with the topics of depression, Suicide, running away, and cutting. DONT READ!!!!

                           Grace POV

We found out that I had depression when we went to the doctors he gave me this medicine that was recently dropped off the prescription was for me but we never got any medicine for me but we took it anyway. A few weeks after I started taking it I Hurd the guys around me saying they think I mellowed down that I'm not "dangerous" anymore like what the hell dose that mean. Anyway the assessment took way longer then they thought I'm almost 14 and they haven't even finished it coming up is the art of the sword thing whatever the hell my dad said it was called. And I still have to compete but I know I was going to participate anyway I like hand to hand combat and you can do that as well since I'm a dancer I  can dodge things pretty quickly. Anyway back to what I'm doing I was getting ready for the day, I got my purple camo cargo pants and put them on next I found my green crop top and threw that on. Next was shoes I picked my black super star adidas. Then onto makeup I have a bunch of make I have fake eyelashes mascara foundation concealer highlighter I have a bunch of highlighter I have countor palettes and some more makeup that I won't get into to detail. I was almost done with my makeup when I heard a knock on my door " yes, what is it?" I yelled from the other side of the door " its breakfast hijikata wants you their now." Said souji " ok just a sec." I yelled back at souji i finished putting on my fake eyelashes and used my fake eyelash mascara. I grabbed my adidas, and my hat and opened my door to see a waiting souji. "Took you long enough." He scoffed, I rolled my head and stared walking towards the dining hall " your fathers not going to like your outfit." He sang in amusement. I rolled my eyes and kept walking. All the sudden I don't fell my feet touching the floor but I was moving. " oi, put me down!" I yelled " no way shorty you walk to fast so I'm keeping you here at my pace. He flung me over his shoulder and rested his hand on my upper back. " put me down! And I'm not short I'm 5,3!" I yelled as he kicked open the dining hall door " nope that's short." He argued " no I'm not short 5,3 is average!" I yelled buffing my cheeks out " would you two stop arguing!" Boomed my dad we both went silent. All the sudden souji dropped me I hit the floor with a thud. I rubbed my but as I got up glaring daggers at souji who just smiled like nothing happened. I sat down and began to eat my meal when I found something missing I crossed my arms over my chest and looked at the guys then I looked at shinpachi hiding something behind his back " shin? Did you take my rice?" I said crossing my arms over my chest " oh no why would you say that?" He said nervously " hmm I guess I'll just got check the kitchen to see if there is any rise," I said glaring at him I walked out the door and took a short cut to get back in the dining hall. I discovered it a few years ago I can get into the room but I'll be on the beams right above the men. I carefully go over to the beam shinpachi is right below I place my legs on that beam flip back popping up right in front of shins face " you did take my rice!" I yelled at his face he jumped back and almost punched me but I dodged it. " hey wow watch out." I said grabbing his fist. I dropped his fist and jumped down from the beams I turned around and grabbed my rise from behind shins back I smiled and sat back down. Ate the rest of my meal in piece when I was done with my meal I went out to my tree house (yes she still has the tree house) when I got up there I grabbed some of my money to go into town Saito was coming with me so I wasn't along. It's almost my 14th birthday my dad got a tattoo when he was 14 so I begged him to let me get one he finally let in and he's letting me get one that why were going to town sure my birthday was in 4 days but it's never to early, the only thing he doesn't know is that I'm getting 2 tattoos one is the name my uncle kando wants his group to be called and second is just a design on my arm ( her design on her arm looks kind of like pochantas's tattoo but it has dots and more shapes) I was walking back into the the dojo when I saw a man he was standing there it looked like he was waiting. I paid him no mind and kept walking " hey you girl? Where are you going?" I ignored him and kept walking up the stairs " hey don't ignore me hoe!" He yelled at me. I snapped my head back with anger and stormed my way towards him " what do you want dumbass I have schedule." I growled at him " is kando Ismai here?" He said smirking down at me " that depends who's asking?" I growled " I don't think that's any Business for a little whore." He said laughing I wiped out my katana and placed it to his neck as he placed his at my neck. It alerted some people who must of told my father and uncle kando because the next thing I knew they were both standing outside the dojo doors " grace stand down!" Yelled my father I didn't listen I kept my eyes locked on the man " grace stand down!" He yelled louder I removed my katana from his neck as he slowly removed his. I seethed my katana and rested it back on my hip I stood back and walked to uncle Saito " come on." I said pissed off he walked behind me as we made it outside the dojo  I walked fast and didn't slow down until we made it to the shop I was getting my tattoo done at. I gave the shop owner my design and told him what I wanted to be written on my back and he got to work. He had me lay on my stomach on a table. The table was very cold and uncomfortable but I wanted my tattoos.  "Ok I'm going to begin." The man said he placed the toll on my skin and begun to prick my skin. It hurt a little bit but quickly subsided before I knew it was done and on to my arm.