The Weirdest Thing Ever

iv. illest bullies

I just left him dumbfounded there. I don't wanna talk to him anymore. For not being used around guys and he might get bullied too? I really just can't.

I ran downstairs, through the corridors, went into the comfort room and shut myself in a cubicle. Suddenly, tears fell on my face and it kept on going. Ugh, this really can't be happening.

Why is he like that? I mean, he just transfered here; he is a complete stranger. And by that means he barely knows me. Why did he do something like that in front of everyone? Is he being... protective? He shouldn't have done that, really! Let me say it again that if he still continued "protecting" me or such, he  might get in trouble. And I don't want that to happen. And by the means of that, I can't be friends with him.

I even shouted at him. And whenever I shout at someone, it pierces my heart; it's against my will to shout at someone, mostly to strangers. I shouldn't have done that.

I know I shouldn't be judging him that he's a bad person but I can't clearly trust anyone; I have trust issues. Plus, even if he turns out to be a good person, I should distance myself or else they would make fun of him, too, and it would be all because of me.

I do care about him, you say? No, I still don't. Let me just say it again that-- ugh, nevermind. How many times should I say that? My anxiety is killing me.

Suddenly, I heard the door creaked open. I heard footsteps crept in and creepy laugh of girls started to occupy the silence of this place. And with that, I easily recognized who they are only with their devilish laugh.

Oh no, not in the middle of my drama!

I immediately wiped my tears with my handkerchief I fished out from my pants' pocket. I slightly opened the cubicle's door and tried to peak through it. I saw them facing in front of the mirror, putting on some make up, "Oh. My. Gosh! That poor bitch has an ally now! We should get rid of him so we can bully that girl whenever we want! School won't be fun without toys to be played, right?" said Kara, the school's bitchiest bitch, with her high-pitched voice. I mean, I'm not being mean or whatever but that's what everyone calls her and she doesn't mind being called one. Honestly.

I can't react on that like, go out there and pull out the strands of their hair. Definitely not gonna do that. As much as possible, I don't wanna get into fights. Anyway, I'm already used to it; I'm already used hearing them tease me.

"Wait. That guy is really handsome. I want him! Can we just get that handsome dude from her? Pretty please?" her friend Katarina, another illest bitch, playfully pleaded at her with a pout on her face.

I'm telling y'all, Kara and Katarina are the two illest bit-- BULLIES in this school that can easily dominate you even if you're just plain innocent. And I'm their most favorite prey.

But wait, are they talking about V? If it's him, might as well enjoy his company but they better not hurt him! He's innocent too, you know? Again, it's not that I care about him. It's just... He might look... pitiful? Yeah, pitiful. He won't look cool clinging with them.

"Well maybe, he could be into us once he get tired of protecting that Zee Choi bitch. Just let our bitches do the dirty job because when we want to steal a guy, we don't wanna look the bad one, right?" Kara winked before letting out her evil laugh, and Katarina went along laughing too.

Seriously, these girls are the rudest of the rudest. They think that they rule the school, even though they really not. And, seriously?! Do they really think that V would like them? Nu-uh. No, I don't think so. If I were V, I won't even like them even a single bit. With their attitudes? I don't think he can stay any longer with them. And what? They will get his attention so that I won't have anyone that could be my savior? As if he's going to like them! I don't care if they'll get him away from me. But hey, he won't get attracted to them. I swear from heaven to hell.

Unless he wants the fame and be the bad boy they'd probably like.

You know, even the most quiet and nicest person in the world could still have a bad side. They get to sugar-coat it because it's fun to play with people faking your real personality. Like me, I even mentally throw daggers at them. Or pretend that the food I'm slicing are them for fun. Not enough to release my anger, but I guess it's enough. Anyway, I never wanted to be the bad guy.

Err, am I sugar-coating my "bad side" with that or am I trying to be at least one? Ah, nevermind.

I quietly closed the cubicle's door and leaned against it. I really can't believe I got involved in this, sorry for the word but, bullfrog. I mean, being enrolled in this school is my most regret I ever had.

I heard their evil laughs finally stopped, "Yeah right. Girl, you're the best!" Katarina said.

"I already know that." Kara giggled, "Hmm, let's go!" then I heard the clasp of their high heels against the floor started fading as they finally went out.

I slowly stood up and get out of the cubicle. I went in front of the mirror and looked at myself.

Do I really deserve to be like this?

Do I really have to go through all these?

I just wanted it to stop.

Ugh. The nerve of them!

Suddenly, a tear ran through my face but I immediately wiped it with my handkerchief.

"Someday," I said to myself, "I will stand out and everyone would be in awe." I fixed myself and finally went out of the cr.

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note: aye sorry for being hiatus for so long so i thought about updating this one. (finally yaaay) anyway, to everyone who's been going through like zee's situation, who gets being bullied or worst, I'd appreciate to help you guys. how about you guys leave a comment and let me talk to you? i'm a good listener. i could be a friend, too. so don't hesitate to comment down and show how you feel. because just like what namjoon said, "I want to hear your voice... No matter who you are, where you from, your skin colour, gender identity: speak yourself."