Maddison's POV
*thursday at school*
I walk in class with my head down. Ethan hasn't talked to me all day. I was surprised because I definitely thought he would pick on me more.
Let's just hope we can keep the streak with Grayson.
Right now me and Grayson, are at an awkward point I guess.
I don't really know how to explain it but there's an awkward tension between us when we're together.
He takes a seat next to me and I can basically feel his eyes piercing through me.
I turn to look at his but he looks the other way. I let out an annoyed huff and look back up at the board.
Out of the corner of my eye I can see him looking at me again.
"Do you need something?" I snap. The whole class turns around. "Is there a problem?!" I ask with sass.
"Excuse me Ms.Lisk, that is no way to talk to anyone." Mr. Smith says.
"Whatever." I mumble and grab my stuff, walking out of the class. This school is boring and all the teachers don't know how to teach.
They sure do know how to make me fall asleep.
As I turn the corner I bump into Emily. "Oh hey, Emily. Where were you this morning?"
"Stupid doctors office." She says rolling her eyes.
"Hey, what's been going on with you and Grayson?" She asks out of the blue.
"Um w-what do you mean?" I stammer.
"I'm not stupid Madds. I know everything about you whether you tell me or not. What's going on." She questions with seriousness laced in her voice.
I inhale and exhale a big breathe before talking.
"He's trying to apologize. I think. He's been trying to talk to me for days and I'm shutting him out. He hasn't been 'bullying' me at all recently and it's..freaky. I don't know what to do." I bury my face in my hands and sigh.
Her eyes widen at what I just said. She takes a deep breathe taking it in.
"Do you not realize what's happening?" She asks.
"No."
"He's been on your dick for how long..3 school years? He finally wants to apologize and start over!" She claps her hands as a big smile grows over her face.
"That's not the point, Emily."
"Mm, kinda is-"
"Ok well thats not the point. I'm not gonna immediately forgive him! You know how much pain he put me through." I sigh and rub my head.
"Just hear me out. You know there's some good in him, I know you know there is. You've seen it before. Next time he tries to talk to you just listen?" She hold up her pinky, wanting to lock it with mine.
I giggle and lock pinkies with her. "Fine." I mumble
A big smile grows on her face as she jumps up and down.
"You're so annoying." I joke. "I know." She replies with a wink.
The loud bell goes off and I can't believe we took that long.
I wave Emily off and as she walks away an idea pops up in my head.
"Emily, Wait!" Everyone turns around to look at me because I'm speed walking through the halls and I look crazy.
As I catch up to her I catch my breath as well. "You wanna just skip?"
"Thank god I thought you'd never ask." She rolls her eyes.
We quickly run out the doors and book it to my car making sure not to get caught.
As we get in we laugh and catch our breathes.
God I love this girl.
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4:52pm
We spent the whole time talking about drama and watching Netflix.
I completely forgot about tutoring until I get a text.
Ethan: im coming at 5
"Oouuu. Who ya textin'!" Emily grabs my phone and looks at the screen. Her jaw drops and her eyes widen.
"Ethan?!" She practically screams.
"It's for tutoring dick swab. Wait. Tutoring! I totally forgot!" I snatch my phone out of her hands and read the text.
I look at the time ; 4:56pm
Oh shit.
"Emily what do I do?" I panic.
"I don't know. I'm the dick swab here." She chuckles at the name I gave her.
I glare at her as she throws her hands in the air. "I don't know!"
"He's coming in like 3 minutes!"
"Just calm down. I'm gonna leave-"
"You're leaving me?!" I cut her off.
"Um yea. You guys were alone the last two times." She says in a 'duh' tone. "I'm gonna leave. And you will be calm. Just act normal."
"Ok. Ok. I got this." I mumble.
The doorbell goes off and I jump up. Emily glares at me and mouths 'be calm'
I nod and go to open the door. As Emily walks out she gives Ethan a death stare. He furrows his eyebrows and keeps walking.
I lead him upstairs to my room without saying one word and start going through my notes.
"Can you play music." He basically demands instead of asking.
"Um yeah." I connect my speakers and scroll through my playlist clicking 'When the party's over' By Billie Eilish.
"Billie fan I see." He says with a smirk.
Fuck he's so hot.
I nod my head shyly.
"I am too. You can kind of relate to her songs you know?"
"Yea, you really can." I say truthfully.
This is the first time me and Ethan have agreed on something.
Wow.
Progress?
"If you don't like living with your dad. Why don't you just live with your mom?" He asks emotionless.
Like I said. I was close with Grayson. Not Ethan. Therefore he doesn't really know anything about me.
"Nothing you'll understand." I take a long pause tears filling my eyes.
There's no way I'm opening up to Ethan right now.
"You know you can tell me." He replies
"How do I know that?" I question honestly.
How can I trust him? After all of this. Now he wants to 'be my friend'
"Just." He takes a pause and sighs.
"I know I've been a dick to you, but you can trust me. Right now, in this moment."
Maybe he is trying to change.
"She died when I was younger." I say quickly not wanting the memories to come back.
He makes an 'o' shape with his mouth and looks down. Obviously not knowing what to say.
I scoff and wipe my tears away. "Whatever let's get this over with."
this
is
so
ugly
hi kelly
-b
