FAKE PREGNANCY °[KathNiel] ✓COMPLETE

14. Stare

Elqenna

Finding it funny that I remembered the place where Mavvy took me, I grinned at him while only chuckled. He must have read what's running on my mind. Well, we're in the coffee shop where he stole my Frappuccino.

Papasok na sana kami nang biglang siyang huminto at nagmamadali akong hinila pabalik sa parking lot.

"Frappie, don't look back."

I can sense that something was wrong so I craned my neck to look back as opposed to what he just told me. It wasn't as hard as I thought in discovering what's in there that Mavvy was trying to conceal from me. I actually had a hunch. It couldn't be more obvious. Who else would Mavvy shun me from to protect my heart from another heartbreak? There's only one man capable of breaking my heart.

As I suspected, Raven was there, laughing with a woman whom he once kissed the last time I saw them. My tears weren't able even hold themselves up, not even letting me until I reach Mavvy's car. It just welled out right exactly when I saw them.

"Frappie, you shouldn't have looked back,"nag-aalalang sambit ni Mavvy habang pinupunasan ang luha ko.

He tried so hard to find the words to comfort me. Pero kahit anong sabihin niya, hindi nawawala ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. I already expected him to be with another girl but it's really just so hard to see them together before my very eyes.

"Blair... Kausapin mo 'ko."

I shrugged, meaning not to start a conversation. I just wanted to cry it all out. Though in my head, my mind was filled with a bunch of questions, most of which degraded my self-esteem.

What is Raven doing? Why would he do this to me? Hindi pa ba sapat 'yong unang sinaktan niya ako? Kulang pa ba 'yong unang panloloko niya? Bakit ba kasi ang tanga ko!

Stupid Qenna! You are forever so stupid.

"Sorry,"Mavvy whispered, making me look up to him for the first time since we left the coffee shop.

"Sorry? For what?"

"Hindi ko natupad 'yong pangako ko na... Na hindi ka na ulit masasaktan." He sighed, an exasperated one. "Blair, I'm sorry. Kung pwede lang kunin sa'yo 'yang sakit na nararamdaman mo, gagawin ko."

"Sobrang sakit, Mavvy,"sumbong ko na parang batang inagawan ng laruan. "Hindi pa ba sapat 'yong una? Kailangan pa bang ulitin? Ang sakit-sakit e. Mavvy, I just want my life to be over. Maybe only then, hindi na ako masasaktan."

"Blair, listen to me. Hindi kita pababayaan. Nandito lang ako. Oo, masakit 'yan ngayon pero... Maniwala ka sa'kin, mawawala din 'yan. You will get through this."

Somehow finding comfort in his arms and by sobbing on his chest, I eased a bit of the burden that seemed so heavy to muster earlier. I realized afterwards that I should stop my charade. Ayaw ko na. Itatama ko ang mga katangahang pinaggagawa ko lalo na 'tong panloloko sa mga taong wala namang ginawa kundi maging mabait sa'kin. Aalis nalang ako ng bansa, papakasalan ko nalang si Innigo. Tutal, wala namang kwenta 'yong buhay ko e. My parents just wanted me out of the family too because I am of no use, that I know of certain. Ang hirap na hindi maging tanga dahil buong buhay ko, tanggap kong gano'n ako. Wala akong kwenta.

Yohan went home for three days now because of a family emergency so I was stuck in the house with Mavvy. One thing I'm grateful for having him is knowing he would never bring me down. He was by my side all the time. When he felt like I need to cry it all out, he would be the one to hand me the tissue and just allow me however I wish to comfort myself. But if he felt like I have to stop, he would not hesitate to offer me his shoulders or the warmth of his embrace. But one thing that made everything harder for me was knowing that tita Marga will not be home and extended for another week, long enough to prolong my agony. Gustong-gusto ko ng sabihin 'yong totoo e. Gusto ko ng takasan lahat ng 'to.