Just like lightning, you appear into my life unexpectedly.
We met before but we never talk.
We were the type that every time our path crossed we just nod our head as a sign of "hi."
It was the birthday of my crush that we have talked to each other for the first time.
The second time was on June.
I never knew that you would mean something to me.
I surely know that these feelings that I've felt for you is forbidden.
So I act as if I never had feelings for you.
I was trying to hide it.
I was trying so hard that I would never slip any words through my mouth that would make you think that i like you.
Even if sometimes I act like feeling like a girlfriend to you, I always make sure that you would never find out.
Every time that you almost caught me I always turn down the situation around making you believe that what you thought is not what you think.
And maybe that was the reason why..
Why you never chose me when i'm the one who's always there for you
And why you never stay by my side.
My personality must have confuse you.
I'm really sorry
I know i'm not worth it but I am really trying my best to be the better, best person for you.
I know i'm stupid for not being true with my feelings for you.
I tried to save us
Sad to say it didn't work
I was suffocating
From trying to save us
Then I remember for a hundred times
That there was never an us
I had enough
So I let you go and cut my hair
So that I could breathe gold
At first I thought I could just easily let you go but I was wrong
I was stalking you then suddenly
There's this girl that you have tagged on your pictures
I was curious about it
I stalked her timeline
Then there boom
I saw a video where you were asking her if she can be yours
And she said YES.
I burst out crying again.
My tears were endless on the month of OCTOBER and I will never ever forget that.
It was the most painful part of my life.
And I have no one to vent it out 'cause they can't relate.
I know from the start that I should've avoided you but there's this something from you that I couldn't get enough of.
You were the one who always me happy
You were the one who made me feel alive
You were the one who help me grow as a person
You were the one who made me believe that love is real
And lastly you are my moon in my dark empty world.
You are the best person that I have ever met.
I saw something from you that you didn't believe in yourself.
I know you will be successful in the future soon.
You always said that you didn't know where you will go
But I know someday that you will know
And when you found that place I know you'll be truly happy.
You deserve so much more
You are the kind of person who can get through anything even if you're life is in trouble.
I hope you see that.
'Cause I believe in you.
You taught me a lot
I keep on praying on you even if we never said goodbye to each other
It hurts 'cause we never got the chance to say what we really feel
And just like that it ended fast like how the lightning lost it's light after it struck down.
God knows since June i've been crying because you are my answered prayer.
And it's hard for me to accept the fact that you are my answered prayer but maybe you're not the one that God allowed for me to be my partner in life forever.
I wan't so bad to cry again but there's no tears would fall down.
I know i'm numb now but do not be pity on me.
This is my open letter to you.
I know this is indirect.
But I just want you to know still 'cause I don't have the guts to tell you this directly
I love you long before I have the guts to let you know now
'Cause you are so special to me.
December 3, is the month and day that you were born.
I've greeted you on facebook and this is the sequel of it.
