Pretend you don't see her

Chapter 2

It has been a whole week now. Everything seems different. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was once that guy who used to have such a nice physique,always shaved,hair done well and dressed up very well but right now nothing mattered to me. All that I ever wanted was her. I really missed her.
I knew that she would be looking form above and smiling at me and telling me to be strong but it just wasn't that easy.
I really wanted her to be in my arms I really wanted to hold her close and let her know how much I loved her.
I wanted her.
I needed her.
I took a bath and got dressed up for office. I refused to go back to my apartment because we used to live there together and I just didn't want to go there. I looked at the phones screen and saw her picture. Alot of things can change in the blink of an eye. She was no more now so why her memories.
I deleted all of her pictures. All of her things were dumped now and as days passed everyone was letting it go. I took out pictures from the frames but kept it inside my closet. Everyone has moved on then why not me! Why would you do this to me Avanti? Why me? What had I done to you?
I don't know why everyone has been telling me that I should move on and mom has already started finding new girls so that I could start dating them and begin another life with someone else. Look how easily all of them forgot you. Just one week.
No.
I won't go back to the place which reminds me of you! I can't keep on doing this to myself and to us. Even though you are not here with me but no matter what you will always be in my heart. I miss you Avanti I miss you. I felt like crying and asking God why would he do this to me? Why was it always me who suffered? I wanted to yell and scream at him for this but all I could do was stay there silently and watch everyone move on except for me who still held into the feeling of her coming back....