i wrote some songs about you

part one

i was sitting next to taylor, my best friend, trying to calm myself down. taylor had invited me to a the victoria secret after party, which i had never went to. apparently, huge artists like ariana grande were going to be there and my heart was beating incredibly fast. i didn't want to make a fool of myself in front of such huge celebrities, especially not people that i look up to.

"you're going to be fine!" taylor said, trying to comfort me, but all i did was smile and continue to tap my nails on the car door.

once we had finally reached the place, i smiled at taylor a little and sighed. i calmed myself down and told myself that everything was going to be okay, which worked. i got out of the car with taylor by my side and cameras began to flash immediately. we both entered the building quickly and laughed as i stumbled a little.

"how do you do that?" i asked her. my eyes were already hurting and i was only out there for a few seconds.

"you get used to it." she replied and took my hand so we could go sit down somewhere. we ended up sitting by the rest of the victoria secret models and their plus ones.

i politely said hi to them and retreated to go on my social media. although i was a social media influencer, i was actually pretty antisocial and preferred to be alone than to be at big parties like this.

i sat there doing nothing for what seemed to be about 30 minutes until everyone started getting up and taylor told me to come dance with her. i wasn't a great dancer and so i denied at first, but with the rest of taylor's friends telling me to go, i stood up and moved a little to the music.

"hey!" i heard taylor exclaim as she moved away from me to hug someone. i turned around to see her hugging shawn mendes. i really loved his music, but i wasn't obsessed with him. which, i suppose is a good thing since this way i won't get as freaked out if he says hi to me.

"hi tay." he replied and hugged her back, moving her back and forth slightly. i smiled at them and continued to talk with a few of taylor's friends, which were actually so nice. we laughed a little as we drank some wine. i only took a small sip every once in a while since i wasn't a fan of alcohol.

i turned back around when taylor called my name. i smiled at her and saw shawn still beside her.

"hey" he told me and i smiled at him and replied back with a simple hi.

"well, shawn this is amelia." taylor said, "and amelia this is shawn."

he reached for my hand which i shook. i never really noticed how cute he was, but in this lighting all i wanted to do was invite him over to my apartment. but instead i just said, "i'm going to get a drink, do you guys want anything?"

taylor said no and shawn just said, "i'll just go with you." i nodded in agreement and we both headed to the bar, keeping a significant distance between us.

we both got our drinks and sat on some stools near by and began to talk, "so, how do you know taylor?"

"well, my parents know her parents and we just kind of clicked? i don't really know, we just sort of became friends when we were 10 or something." i replied and he nodded, "how do you know her?"

"a fashion show." he replied simply and i nodded, everyone knew her from fashion shows.

by the end of the night, he had given me his number. i'm not quite sure how it happened, but it happened. i think he might've had too much to drink, but i decided that i wasn't going to need it anyway.