2 Years Ago A.I.

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Ashton's POV

I walked onto the echoing stage, booms of screams coming at us from every angle. My band mates Michael, Luke and Calum all had game faces on as we started off our first album tour. I walked over to my drum set with two pairs of sticks in one hand, it's not like they were necessarily necessary but I had to be prepared if I accidentally broke one on stage, this happened to me many times before. So many times in fact I have a bucket full next to my set.

The lights dimmed a signal that readied us to almost start, the screams in the girls of the crowds almost deafens me as I put my earbuds in. The lights slowly dims throughout the stadium. My bandmates and I gave one small nod to each other before we started playing Good Girl.

We had a good lineup. First, we played Good Girl, a song we are immune to. Then Luke talks into the mic introducing us to the sea of unlit bodies. We will then play End Up Here, Long Way Home, Never Be, 18, then we slow down to Amnesia, only to pick it back up with Everything I Didn't Say, Kiss Me Kiss Me, Beside You, Voodoo Doll, Heartbreak Girl, Social Casualty, Green Light, then last but not least She Looks So Perfect. With small breaks in between to take a breather, we wanted to make this year memorable for everyone coming to see us.

My adrenaline pumped as I beat on my drums, the only thing I focus on during concerts or in general. I get weird anxiety when I'm away from them for too long.

The crowd sang along, screamed out names and threw random items on stage.

Before I knew it the concert was over we said our goodbyes to the bursting crowd as the lights shut off. We walked off of stage and was congratulated by our roadies with slaps on the backs and laughter. We finally reached our dressing room to pack up of our stuff and head to the next city.

-2MonthsLater-

I sat on my hotel bed. Palms sweating, tears running down my flush stained cheeks. I wiped off the tears and walked over to the full body mirror that I still happened to be taller than. I sat to my knees in front of it looking at the burning red tint around my hazel orbs. Im not gonna lie I feel kinda alone right now. I turned my head to the unmade bed. I am alone.

The smell of sex lingered in the air with the cheap perfume of what ever her name was. I didn't know, and honestly didn't care. She left after I was done with her. I usually try to fill that void with groupies and it works until five minuets after we climax. I didn't want to admit that I felt alone in a room filled with thousands of people, but I do..extremely alone.

I stared at my wrists that were traced with the scars of yesterday. I promised that I wouldn't do this to myself again. I glared into my right palm, emotionlessly gazing at the shining steel rectangle. I walked over to the restroom and threw cool water onto my face trying to ease my burning skin. Besides I have a show tonight I don't need to have an accident.