It's been a month since a last saw Joey and I don't feel like living anymore....I hate myself for saying the things I said....and I'm still locked in my room...I haven't been eating and....I'm just so depressed and sad...I cry every day....and I just want to go home! Why did I ever come here! I miss my mom and dad never sent me away! God...I'm starting to cry now! Anyways....yeah I don't feel like living and I think it would be best if I disappear from this world.....well.....I write in this later.