heartbreak hotel

the past

Omar

I sat waiting for Gazzy to tell me what happened to him, my heart was pounding in both anger and fear. I heard him crying for hours in his sleep, it fucking broke my heart seeing someone who i love in this condition I couldn't believe the things i heard him say and cry out,he was in pain, he was hurt and i couldnt help him.

It was sick, sinister even. The things that came from Gazzys lips in his sleep. Pleading for help. It was evil that someone would touch Gazzy in a harmful way. He was like 5'7 and when i met him couldnt have weighed like 120 if that.

And the was the softest person i knew. He was so sweet and caring, he would never hurt anyone and I would never do anything to hurt him. I couldn't bring myself to do anything to hurt this kid.

He looked at me, his eyes wet from tears, as they stained his cheeks. I was rubbing his back trying to be patient with him as ge caught his breath but i wanted to know what had happened. Who had hurt him? Why did they hurt him? Why would anyone hurt this perfect kid?.

"My uncle" he sniffed to me. My heart dropped. He looked so ashamed. I had never felt this level of anger and hate towards some i had never met before

"The one you lived with?" I asked. He nodded. I looked at the wall. Unable to look Gazzy in the face because of how hurt he looked. Guilt ran through me.

"He tried to rape the gay outta me" he cried. I stiffened. His uncle did what? I closed my eyes hoping Gazzy would stop telling me already but i think.he needs to tell someone to get it out his system. Hes so innocent.

"I was 14, it started with him just drinking and slapping me around, shit that my dad already did, but my dad...my dad told him... then he started getting ruff with me" Gazzy cried.

"Thats why you ran away?" I asked. He shook his head No. I sighed snaking my hand into his and holding it. Making him comfortable while he was getting it out his system.

"It all started when i was 14. My dad fucking hated me being gay. I missed a shit ton of school because he would try and make me 'a real man' but it never worked. I wasnt built to be like him, he hated me being this way. He hated me before i came out, but i had to, because i was outed at my school." Gazzy told me. I just stayed quiet.

"When i came out at 13 my dad started beating me worse than before, then eventually my mom got me out of there when my dad left me in hospital. I moved to Indiana to live with my grandparents and shit but they both died." He told me. I already knew all of this though. He told me the first time we met.

"My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer. She was growing weaker and weaker and my father refused to pay for treatment so my mother sent me to like with my dads brother." Gazzy was calm now. As if talkin about this didnt phase him.

"He clamed me as soon as my dad told him i was gay, he would beat me and rape me, he would fuck with me in all kinda ways and the more i fought him the harder he would be" Gazzy sighed.

"Gazzy thats all kinda fucked up, im sorry you went through that bebe" i told him pulling him into me. I held his hand still. Bringing it up to my lips and placing a kiss on his knuckles.

"It went on for months before he beat me and a dude i was seeing, he left me for dead and after that my whole school found out. The dude told the whole school he walked in on me and that monster fucking" he mumbled.

"School found out and called CPS and my mom took me back till she passed." I gripped gazzy tight holding him.

"Thats why i cant... i want to, i just, im not mentally ready to move on" he told me. I nodded as i wiped a tear from my face quickly.

"Ill wait as long as you need me too Gazzy." I said to him honestly. "I thought my life was fucked up" i said.

"Tell me about you" he asked. I smiled at him and nodded.

"I was born here in LA. My mom and dad were both Cuban, my fathers, father was a multi-millionair and left my 5 uncles and my father money. My father built a chain of malls around the us and eventually europe too" i said.

"As stress got to my mom and dad after i was born they ordered Flo in to look after me and my brother Micheal. My mom started drinking and leaving more, my dad started cheating, taking drugs,  drinking more. They both grew out of love and eventually started to hate me and Micheal too" i told Gaz as he listened intently .

"Alcahol sucks" Gazzy mumbled as he cuddled under my arm. Making me use my hand to rub his cheek.

"Yeah well my moms been a raging alcoholic since i was 6. My dad, he would go away for days and my mom would get drunk and fall asleep, me and micheal would be left to fend for ourselves, we would starve sometimes when Flo wasnt around. Sometimes my dad would beat micheal, coz he wasn't biologically his" i said. I was so confused. I never opened up to anyone like this.

"My dad wasn't my biologic father either. He always hated me" Gazzy said.

"Well as i got older i turned to drugs to space me out. Take me away from my shit life, started off with a bitta weed, then coke, Es, Painkillers, eventually life just faded away." I sniffed, Gazzy kissed my shoulder, i shook my head.

"By the end of my senior year i was a full blown drug addict. Coke, heroin, xans. I was on everything that i could use to get me out of it. I failed high school so my dad payed for me to go to rehab, only because he didnt want anyone to see we werent all roses and rainbows like people thought. I came out rehab after 6 months, went to skis house, thought up some crazy ideas and we started a brand." I said real quick.

"So you already knew ski?" Gazzy asked.

"Ive known ski for most of my life man. If i was finna make it, that musty ass bitch was coming with me" i said laughing, Gazzy laughed too.

"How long you been off drugs then?" Gazzy asked me as my face heated up and i took a breath of air.

"I was clean for like 2 years but i started smoking weed and from time to time i drink lean but nothing crazy. Im just trying to live my best life you know, i dont need hard drugs no more" i said smiling at Gaz as i pulled him into my side.

"Im glad we're friends Omar. You're a good dude" he said as he tucked his head under my arm and closed his eyes.

"Me too Gazzy." I said kissing his forehead.

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(AN)

Bitches this wattpad update got me fucked up.

The headers a photo of lil pumps backdrop that i took ay the pump concert

Not flexin but i touched his stomach and that shit felt like a hairy water balloon  😂😂

Anyway heres a short 1.

I love yall 💕😭