Silence

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Aluka

"We're going shopping tomorrow, Lu, even if I have to drag your small ass all the way to the fucking mall." My best friend, Max, said to me from across the room.

I wrinkled my nose in disgust, and I gave him the 'hell no' look. I hate shopping. Max groaned, "Oh, come on, Lu. We have to go summer shopping!" Max tried to reason with me, "Don't you wanna look good for all the guys we're going to meet at all the awesome parties we're going to?"

Gross, guys. No. I shake my head vigorously, I don't plan on leaving the house this summer. Period. "Jesus, you're too old to be thinking this way, Aluka." Max says, hearing my thoughts. Something that pack members are born with, I actually hate it sometimes, but it's also the only way for me to communicate. "You're nineteen and you've never once have had a love interest in your life." Max complains.

That's a lie. I've thought people were cute before, but the whole never having dating interest in someone is true. Ever since... that day, I've never wanted to have any relationship with a guy. But, Max being gay, I've made an exception.

That doesn't make me a lesbian, though, I'm perfectly straight, I'm just afraid I guess. I'm afraid that every guy will be like...

"You know that's not true, Babe." Max says, leaning his head on my shoulder as he moves to grab the tv remote.

I roll my eyes. He doesn't know that, he's never had an actual relationship either. Come to think of it, I don't even know if someone has shown actual interest in him. "Ouch. That hurt my ego." Max glares playfully at me. "And for your information missy, guys have shown interest in me, just not the kind your thinking about, just the kind I'm only interested in." Max explains. "The sexual kind." He winks.

I wrinkle my nose, I hate that word, I hate this topic. And besides from that, I can't believe Max hasn't waited for his mate! That's what good werewolves do, wait. Another reason why I haven't had a relationship, I want to wait. And I hope that my mate has too.

That is, if he evens wants me.

Max hugs me. "Of course he'll want you, and if he doesn't, he's missing out. And if he can't except that you had no say in..." Max fades, "Then he doesn't deserve you, and you reject his ass right there and then."

I sigh, I just hope that it doesn't come to that. I hope he understands that I wanted to wait, but I couldn't. "He will." Max whispers.

How can he be so sure? No one can tell the future, and I'm positive that my mate will reject me as soon as he sees me. I would too.

"Oh hush, watch the movie with me." Max kisses the top of my head, in the friend way. I lean on his shoulder, sighing. Max had put on Twilight, because he's in love with both main guys, I forget their names, because that's how much I care.

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I sat on the bar, watching my mom move around the kitchen, cooking dinner. The mouthwatering smell of chicken floating in the air. "Me and your father have been talking." My mom starts. Uh oh. That's never good. "And guess what our topic was?" She asks.

I shrugged. Me, obviously, otherwise, mom wouldn't be bring this up. "You." She says. I nod. "We want you and Max to go on a road trip, to see where you want to live, cause you and I both know you feel trapped here."

I roll my eyes. I'm perfectly happy here, and she knows it. Sure, I'm not doing anything with my life, but that's not a bad thing. And there's nothing wrong with staying here a bit longer.

"You're nineteen, Aluka, you need to go out and make something of yourself. You can't live under our protection forever." My mom says, reading my emotions like an open book. I've learned that I'm predictable, everyone seems to know my next move before I even know myself.

"Either way, Aluka, we've already talked to Max, you're going. Wether you like it or not." My mom says sternly.

I sigh in defeat, I can't argue with my mom. Literally. I guess getting out with Max won't be so bad, as long as we don't do anything crazy. Like, parties. That's the last thing I want. A bunch of sweaty horny people, rubbing up against each other and drinking their asses off. And the loud as music, it makes it to where you don't have room to think. It's so overwhelming.

"That's what I thought." My mom says, flicking the oven off. "Hungry?" She asks.

I shake my head. Not really. I'm just going to go for a walk, to clear my mind. My mom nods in understanding, hearing my thoughts. "Don't stay out too late, babe." She says as I jump off the counter and walk out of the back door.

It was already dark out, and the air smelt of rain, and I can hear the faint sound of rain in the distance. I walk into the forest, hidden from my house. I listen to my surroundings, I hear the scuttle of a mouse about a couple yards away, some frogs, the rush of a small creek. I'm alone.

I strip all the way down to my underwear, and I shift into my wolf. I shake out all the tension in my muscles, and my wolf wags her tail excitedly, she's been itching for a run all day. I wait a moment longer, making sure I'm not going to run into anyone, because while I'm running, I don't think.

I take off, heading for my destination for the rest of my night, I most likely won't be home until noon tomorrow. Max will be mad at me, we're supposed to go shopping at ten tomorrow, but this certain destination is so far away, I doubt I'll make it in time. Max will just have to deal. That's what he gets for trying to make me go shopping.

The race against the cold wind, the tips of my ears almost numb, the frozen air burning in my lungs. I love this feeling, I love running in the cold. Although, once you stop, you can't fucking breathe, and your chest hurts, but it's awesome while your running. Max thinks I'm crazy for loving to run in the cold, I think he's crazy for thinking I'm crazy. Cause I'm obviously the crazy one in our friendship.

I get to the river on the border of our territory, and I cross it easily, jumping on the large stones that makes a slight bridge to get across. I start climbing the steep terrain, on the way to the top of the cliff. I slip and almost fall, and I yelp, but I don't slow down. And, soon, I'm at the very top, looking over the edge and starting at the lights of the small little town I was born and raised in. I lay on my side, my paws lazily hanging off the edge.

I want to bring my mate up here one day. To show him my thinking place, the place where I'm most at peace. This cliff is my safe place, and when I find my mate, I want this to be our safe place.

Hopefully, my mate will accept me for who I am. Accept the fact that I'm not pure. That I'm broken. That I'm depressed. That I'm small, everywhere. That I'm mute.

And if he'll accept me, I'll accept him, for who he is. With all of his flaws and dark secrets.

We'll accept each other.

Ew. Okay. Hi. I actually hate this chapter, but I'm just trying to introduce the main characters at the moment, I promise, it will get better. Reading over this, I pointed out every flaw. And there were... a lot. Uhm, so, I hope you enjoyed reading this short ass chapter.

See ya in the next chapter, Loves.

~Willow✌️💖🌻