He can only hold him.

the past can haunt while the present can make things not what they seem to be

"You fucking idiot!" a man with a burn scar on his face screamed and charged at me at the wall. I tried to get out of his grasp but the more i tried he tugged tighter. "He asked you one thing to do! One fucking thing! And guess what? You fuck up! What were you doing again drinking your worthless existence away you piece of shit!" He screamed at my face while trying to bring his fist to my face. "God knows why he would pick your dumbass! I'm warning you right here and now don't ever make him cry again nor see him again!" after those words with me still trying to escape made my whole body stop and accept the punches that landed on my face and brought a smile upon my face with feeling my teardrops fall from my eyes. "You're right I'm a worthless piece of shit and why he picked me questioned me as well... Like who would? Someone with a heart apparently would..." i said laughing with more tears falling and see blood dripping from my nose. "But I'm not going to let you decide what he does... I don't care if hates me or doesn't want to see me right now... It's his choice, not yours and you think you can control him apparently you don't know him at all." with those words i said he looked the other side way and got off me. With me getting up holding my stomach in pain. "Then here's a different warning for you. If you get near him ever again your not the one I'll hurt..." My eyes went wide when i heard a chuckle from his mouth as i know who is he talking about. "If you lay a finger on him I'll!"

"You'll what fight me? Ha, do you really think you can beat me... You're a fucking embarrassment to look at. Even if you tell him he won't even believe you because let's be honest do you really think he wants to see you still?" He went close up to me and had a look of a serial killer would. "Don't test me..." with that he walked out slamming the door. I reach the couch with constant tears streaming down my eyes. "Deku... I'm sorry" i can barely say as i walk to the bathroom and start the shower up. I feel the cold water drowning out my sorrow. I grab my bottle and open it up with drinking the entire bottle in one gulp. "F-FUCK!" I smash the bottle onto the floor with the glass shards shattering all over when the water runs. "Boy... Do you what you do to me... You blush so beautifully" I sing as I look at the water turns to red like the red blossoms are blooming in my hands. I look to see a shard in my left hand just staring at it as I feel numb to the aching pain. I can't tell if i cry or it's just the water running all over my face. My sweet color of red was being more dissolved in the drain like if it was the psycho shower scene. My body felt more tired and the water just flowed the blood from my cut.

This is it... Haha, I feel finally relaxed. So this is how it is to find peace for once to not fuck up anyone's life anymore. I'm free.
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"You tried to kill yourself?!" Denki screamed out letting everyone look at us as if we were actually insane. "Keep it down won't you sparky I'm alive still aren't i?" i said grabbing my glass and taking another drink. "Well yeah but still man Shouto and you as well too" I just didn't say anything when i heard that name. "Yeah, whatever it doesn't matter anymore..." i say just sighing and was about to take another drink when he pulled my hand back down. "It doesn't matter!? You let your best friend marry an abusive asshole!" My fingers dug in my nails once he said that but i couldn't say anything back. "He was happy... And i didn't want to ruin that for him. He wouldn't hurt Deku, either way, he just hates me a lot." i say, looking down at my glass as Denki's is fuming still. "What if he is though?" He said with my eyes widening and can't take this much pain anymore. "Listen... I don't want to talk about this anymore, and you know why he was unhappy in the first place? You moron..." he looked at me with wanting to say something but stopped himself. "I know why and we'll get about that later... But tell me what the fuck happened at the wedding with you?" i took another drink and felt my body calm down. "It's actually not that hard to tell as Todoroki said... I fucked up more like we fucked up..."
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