"Stay away from me. I'm begging you Jam" He just stared at me. He studied my face as if I was a mystery to him all this time.
'No. I won't do what you said . I'm not your slave anymore. "
'How could you have the guts to face me after all you did . I bet you don't wanna mess with the monsters inside me Jam. I have given you enough time . " My jaw are clenching from the thought of leaving him with my hearts breaking. I cannot do it . I should not.
"I want to know the real you . Aren't you happy with me ? I know you want me too ,please baby. Come back to me again. I nodded. As his tears started to flow from his face . I felt my knees going to melt , as my throbbing heart breaks into pieces . I wanted to hug him and tell him it is enough. But ,I just can't. I was never happy revealing what myself is .I don't want anyone to know the real reason behind it. Even him.
" I will never be" . The biggest lie I've ever heard from my mouth. Then I started walking to let go before I am gonna fall apart . I am willing to sacrifice everything, even myself. Just not him. Before I could step from him, he held my wrist firmly that I could feel how he doesn't want to let me go. From all the ways I did ignoring him ,he became adamant. He doesn't just give up easily.
"Please baby, just be with me. I love you so much ,give me a chance to prove it to you. Please .
I know. We feel the same way Jam. I have gathered all my strengths to forget you . I have done everything just so you'll not interrupt my mind but how can I when every night ,even in my dreams you're always there. This is the best way to protect you from them, from everything.
" I don't love you anymore. "Shit.
I'm sorry Jam. I fell out . " That was never the truth. I couldn't suppress myself. I was terribly broken,devastated, and dying every time all thoughts of having you in my life would be my greatest downfall. The best way I can do now is to let you go and will never let you enter my wrecked life again. That way I can protect you.
Iiwasan kita hangga't makakaya ko dahil sapat na ang mga nararanasan natin. Sinasaktan lang natin ang isa't-isa dahil kailan man ay hindi tayo pwede . Gusto kong sumaya ka ng wala ako sa buhay mo at gusto ko ring sumaya na walang iniisip na kapakanan ng isang tulad mo. At ngayon ang tamang panahon . Paalam Jam.
Tinalikuran ko siyang nakatulala . Pumara agad ako ng taxi patungo sa condo ko. I know I'm selfish . I hurt him. He gave me love but all I just did was hurt and disappoint him. This time I am going to clean all the mess I made, to repair my own life.
I can sense that they're after me. They are observing even all my whereabouts. I entered immediately in my condo before I turned into what I am. I kill human to drink blood and eaving him will always be my alas even if he meant everything to me before something happens that I hated the most. We are never good for each other. I took the chance to leave everything behind including what I feel towards a human.
And this is how the story ends .
